Problem Solving Thread

[Raptorsin7]

@Judy2 What kind of breakthrough are you hoping for?

What made your good trips good? And how were you humbled by a bad trip?

[Raptorsin7]

On 12/3/2021 at 9:22 AM, Judy2 said:

@Raptorsin7 

I can't even tell. Probably making it final and "getting rid of the ego" for good. I've had several awakenings, sober and on acid. But for now i realise i don't need to "pursue" anything, the best i can do is surrender to suffering and be good with it in the moment. Not trying to get away from it.

 

All of my trips are usually well-organised, planned ahead, on moderate doses and I am on my own (except for walks, which are the challenging part). During my good trips, i am ready to surrender to virtually anything because of the struggles I was going through in every day life (ready for radical solutions), so i am equipped to face my demons. Some challenging thoughts and situations can come up, for sure, but i never get sucked fully into it.

The bad trip some weeks ago was a result of my recklessly letting a stranger come to my place. I sent him away during the come up cause i was getting super nervous, but it was too late. Calming myself down didn't change the state i was in. For no reason, i got super scared and as time lasted longer and my trips can last up to 17+ hours, i got really uncomfortable. Fortunately, it wasn't as intense after the come up, but my mind kept turning all good things into hidden risks and traps and monsters.

I made it out, and took a break.

My trip yesterday started off well, but 1 hour in, the anxiety came back, leaving me scared although I was all alone in my room. I told myself i was safe and this time it was a bit easier to just lie there and let it go its way. After the come up, i genuinely felt safer and continued my contemplation.

 

In case you're going to bring up trip sitters, I'm working on it. It's hard for me to find people with the same interests in my neighbourhood, and i can't always call the one nonduality-buddy i have.

I'm actually not a big fan of trip sitters because I think they can disrupt the flow of the trip. Unless you have someone who you really love and connect with, I think it can be more of a distraction.

Sounds like your trips are going well, i'd say just learn to accept the fear and anxiety. Go into the root of the fear and anxiety and see what happens when you fully surrender and embrace the fear and anxiety.

I'd also that next time you trip, really focus on the sense of being aware. Like right now as you read this you are conscious right? You are aware of the world as you read this. Notice the immediacy and simplicity of being aware and being conscious

[Raptorsin7]

On 12/3/2021 at 9:22 AM, Judy2 said:

I can't even tell. Probably making it final and "getting rid of the ego" for good. I've had several awakenings, sober and on acid. But for now i realise i don't need to "pursue" anything, the best i can do is surrender to suffering and be good with it in the moment. Not trying to get away from it.

Do you have a meditation practice?

I think just taking like 30-60 minutes to sit and accept the suffering and everything in the moment can be powerful.

I've also heard from another user on here that Suriya Kriya Yoga can be very powerful for changing negative beliefs, relieving suffering etc. Maybe a yoga practice can be really good for you