Emptiness

[aetheroar]

Hello beautiful beings. Firstly, love you all very much. <3

The form here this morning sits in utter peace. Last night through a series of intuitive meditations, a pointer arrived. As it was poured out of the nothingness into the space, the head disappeared...then the body went as a whole. An explanation to the path followed is below:

-Enjoyed a beautiful bowl of Gorilla Glue #4 cannabis.

-Do nothing meditation to still the body

-Used Alice Phoebe Lou’s album Glow (favorite female vocalist) as meditation object. This was the first time I’ve used music as the object of meditation. A few eargasms occured but mostly just deep presence with the sound, not quite merged but close.

-Vipassana body scan and build a 3D light body in the emptiness behind the eyes.

-Now the void had dimension to it, the light body seemed to collapse into that infinite space, and when I opened the eyes, the following pointer was spoken:

-“Try to describe reality to myself using words BUT position a higher willpower on only speaking Truth”

-the brain knows without doubt that no Truth can be spoken, but the feeling of trying really hard to do this was maintained. The brain stumbled over everything in the visual field, eventually looking at the hands and laughing hysterically about the fact that I’ve literally no clue wtf this is.

-Then the pointer occured: “watch reality describe itself” and the moment this was spoken the head vanished. Suddenly there was the recognition that I’ve never directly experienced the head or face, I’d naturally have no clue there was even a brain. The actual direct experience or the head, face, mouth, breath, and body were seen to be a completely arbitrary set of sensations that absolutely don’t add up to what I believe I look like. Looked in the mirror and saw that what was seen in the reflection is 0% of what is directly felt in the body.

-Ate food, “flavor” just appears out of emptiness.

-Noted: “How could I possibly do this with my hands? *wiggles fingers* I only experience the doings, I only know knowledge by concepts. The body is fully automatic and i have no direct experience of a face or head”

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Upon waking this morning and still to this moment, there’s no direct experience of a head. The visual field is fully seen without a seer. Time ceases to exist immediately unless speaking or typing. 100% of the information about what is seen is available just on the surface of the appearance 

The headlessness has happened once before, but it lasted only a couple minutes. This seems very stable and I’ll be repeating the same meditation path later today. Currently just melting into the field as the field.

If this helps anyone, awesome. Curious to those who have gotten to this point if there’s any pointers you can share that may help stabilize the realization.

-Love

[BipolarGrowth]

This is beautiful! It sounds quite close to what I’ve been doing which is basically delta 8/delta 10 THC vaped then putting on Frank Yang coaching calls and using vipassana/do nothing as I literally automatically meditate effortlessly the entire time. I stumbled on this entirely intuitively a bit like you mentioned. It’s been giving me huge shifts which last on into the future. Everything accessed in those states is more or less accessible at all times. Even saying accessible is a bit funny when there’s viscerally felt to be no self there to try to access anything. 
 

Here’s my favorite video I like to meditate to of his. I think you’ll really enjoy it as you’re already in the territory of what he’s talking about. 

 

Edited November 21, 2021 by BipolarGrowth

[aetheroar]

@BipolarGrowth thanks for this!

The last couple days have been interesting, realizing that there’s no direct experience of a head/brain has shifted the viewpoint drastically. Quite lovely sinking into this realization!

Frank Yang has great videos, haven’t seen this one yet, will check it out, thank you

I’ve no conceptual understanding of what the purpose of vipassana body scanning actually does, which is probably good. It feels to me like recognizing that what you feel is all of reality, that none of those sensations are actually scary or unsafe, etc...as in: “everything has been felt and it appears that it’s all okay, oh and by the way, I don’t exist.”

Any pointers for stability of this realization?

[BipolarGrowth]

@aetheroar to stabilize the realization, I think the best thing to do is just more vipassana, more direct investigation of sensations wherever they arise. Do vipassana on your brain/head space that the realization came from. You might find that you still have some tiny and hard to find solidity left there that you think is fully gone. If you find nothing, that’s great, but if you find more solidity, that’s even better. It means you caught yourself thinking it was gone which is going to be what really locks it in for good. If you accidentally feel like the solidity is gone too early, it can put a pause on your progress in that direction. 

[WelcometoReality]

On 2021-11-21 at 5:32 PM, aetheroar said:

If this helps anyone, awesome. Curious to those who have gotten to this point if there’s any pointers you can share that may help stabilize the realization.

Just continue your practice and the realization will stabilize after a while.