No desire to work anymore. Every job I take I want to quit first day

[EntheogenTruthSeeker]

@Nahm doing it Monday. Thanks for all the responses and support Nahm. It may seem like no big deal, but it really helps me get through these struggles with you and everyone else’s help. 

[roopepa]

@EntheogenTruthSeeker Why are you looking for enlightenment? Why are you on this forum, watching videos, taking mushrooms?

What do you want?

[Adodd]

@EntheogenTruthSeekerYeah dude, dead end jobs suck. Every job ive had has been a dead end job where. Im easily replaceable and treated as such but they expect you to slave away for them. I have never made it more than 6 months at a job before being fired and ive been fired from every job ive ever had. And never because I'm not a good reliable worker. I use it all as motivation for escaping wage slavery which. Is something i work hard towards everyday. Its hard to be excited about life and excited to get up when half of your life is spent at a monotonous job.

Edited November 21, 2021 by Adodd

[integral]

16 hours ago, Nahm said:

@EntheogenTruthSeeker

Visit a doctor about the adrenal. 

Western medicine has little competency with these kinds of issues, doctors will likely make things worse. He needs a functional medical practitioner and even at that they tend to over focus on supplements instead of the root of the problem. Its 100% relearning how to connect back with the body and be in a parasympathetic state at all times. Proper sleep schedule, nutrition and relaxed default mind habits.  

Burnout is not something a doctor can fix. This path leads to the unveiling that we live in the dark ages of health. Go down a different path. 

Edited November 21, 2021 by integral

[Michael569]

Sounds like you got mad after you fell through the roof because you forgot to build the walls. 

Skipping stages of development can be a tricky process and for most people trying to bypass orange/green & blue aspects of healthy development can become incredibly toxic. The fact how you judge and demonise people around you shows you haven't fully integrated all these stages. A healthy stage yellow and turquoise does not judge stages below because he/she understands the systemic foundations and difficulties in place and that most people cannot climb stages and never will. 

You've basically created a shadow of Tier 1 and are demonising people who you perceive are below you even thou their success in engaging in Tier 1 might have by far beat yours. 

Get back to the basics dude. Forget about enlightenment and work on your finances, get your own place, make money for the rent, have a bunch of sex, learn a musical instrument, finish your education, get a few jobs, make some new friends, travel the world a bit, become vegan, read a few books about the environment and herbal medicine to properly digest healthy stage green without taking it to extremes. Take couple of years of filling the gaps and holes before you aspire for the highest step again. 

In terms of those health problems, no external drugs, stimulants, supplements or herbs will help in the long term if you ignore the basics. Put your nutrition in place, make it sustainable without tipping off to the extremes (keto, juice fasting, raw). Regular cooked food, mostly plant-based with some animal products. High fibre, medium protein. Take all your protein supplements and throw them in trash can. Exercise light. Learn lots of healthy recipes. Get a pressurised cooker to save time. Buy 2 cookbooks and vouch not to have more than 1 takeaway per week. Cut out sugar as best as you can, don't oversalt and cook most of your food to improve nutrient absorption and healing of your body. A raw diet is cold, swings the body towards Yin dominance and makes absorption too difficult. It can also make one slightly emotional unstable. 

Say no to smoking and marihuana. Say no to alcohol. No to nootropics, no to Adderall, no to caffeine. But drink a shitload of herbal teas such as Yerba Mate to heal those adrenals. And for now, I would say, say no to psychedelic also leave them for now and come back in 10 years once you are fully integrated stage yellow powerhouse ready to take the next step by the balls. 

Before you deconstruct reality, construct the foundations of your life. 

 

[Javfly33]

@EntheogenTruthSeeker What about Kratom? It works wonders for fatigue.

I mean it will hook you physically like coffee does, but you know, ponder the goods and bads. 

Maybe once your adrenals are healed, you can taper off the kratom and go back to normal and this way you maintained the job.

Although im not sure if Kratom uses adrenal energy too, if it does then discard this idea. 

[Adodd]

@Michael569 what resources did you use to obtain a reasonably good understanding of spiral dynamics?

[Matt23]

Some options:

A) More deeply contemplate your top values and/or try to find something you find meaningful (even if it's a general domain and nothing specific), and just try to find some work in that field.  Even if it's just an entry level or low level job that you could do anywhere, doing it in a domain you find meaningful will perhaps at least give you more meaning in your life and work. 

B) Stick it out, even if you feel shitty about it, and use it to "iron out" your psyche and get used to and overcome resistances and things in yourself about the world.  Just see what happens.  Maybe set a specific minimum time to spend at the job, and if it still feels shitty by then (maybe like 3-6 months or something), quit and find something else.  

C) Work part-time and two jobs.  Maybe using one as one you're committed to keep as security, and the other as something your willing to quit on and shop around the workforce market with.  

D)  MOVE OUT OF YOUR HOME TOWN .  Might be a wise move, if possible. 

 

Edited November 22, 2021 by Matt23

[Michael569]

6 hours ago, Adodd said:

what resources did you use to obtain a reasonably good understanding of spiral dynamics?

Leo's videos are the best start. Start with the old one and then make your way through all individual stages. The SD book is also decent albeit kinda dull & boring at times. And there is a lot of content online. 

[Adodd]

@Michael569 thanks. 

So for best understanding watch these as prerequisites, correct?

[Average Investor]

@Adodd Those two videos won't be of much use until you understand the stages. Start with watching the stage purple, then red, blue, orange, green, yellow, and turquoise. 

I would recommend reading the book to get a deeper clarity and understanding of the model. His videos that were released earlier did not quite cover as much in the book. Plus it takes a good 50 hours of studying this to really understand it. 

[Shawn Philips]

I'm in the same boat, I'm saving enough money to quit society and live in the countryside away from stupid npcs, there life will be cheaper and more connected to nature and disconnected of the nonsense.