Should I tell my friends about my CPTSD ?

[B_HAZ]

I've met 3 good friends this year .. but it's been a month or so since I stoped talking to them

I've starting to run away because of my fears \triggers ..They tried to reach out but I didn't respond. Also I'm tired of acting out and pretending to be " normal" and wearing happy\ people pleaser person mask , I feel so drained emotionally physically and mentally.. I can't be around anyone .. I barley survived last days . Right now they think that something is wrong with me or something bad happened and its causing me more stress I can't respond or ignore them

Should I tell them about my issue " CPTSD" or they will freak out and run away I'm super anxious that they will leave me. they don't truly know me but I'm scared that If they did they will leave .. what should I do\say to them? please help I'm tired I have high anxiety because of this

[Federico del pueblo]

What is CPTSD?

Anyway, unless it's a lethal and highly contagious disease I think there's no problem in telling other people about your issue, except for your fear of judgement/rejection ofc ;-)

[B_HAZ]

2 hours ago, Federico del pueblo said:

What is CPTSD?

Anyway, unless it's a lethal and highly contagious disease I think there's no problem in telling other people about your issue, except for your fear of judgement/rejection ofc ;-)

@Federico del pueblo

I'm afraid it's a form of self sabotage .. I don't to keep sabotaging my relationships .

I don't know if this is good idea or not at the same time I feel like this will relieve the constant stress of me always trying to explain myself like " I just needed some space" or constantly wearing a mask of being "normal"  I don't want them to interpret my behaviours and actions in a wrong  way.

 

One of my friends called me today multiple times I'm so stressed out , I feel ashamed for not being underdeveloped and not being able to connect with others like normal people I feel I'm very dysfunctional even simple things in life takes allot from me more than other people who doesn't suffer from cptsd

 

I feel sad because it's my birthday and I'm alone and it's because of me  

I don't fear or hate being alone but I know connection and friendships  is an important need for me 

Edited November 12, 2021 by B_HAZ

[Random witch]

Yes. Tell them and explain them about it as best as you can. You can say that your behavior doesn't mean that you don't like them but it's out of CPTSD and you're in healing process.

If they're still don't get you don't be sad about it, at least you were clear and honest.

 

Edited November 12, 2021 by Random witch

[B_HAZ]

@Random witch

Yeah I think I will tell them I want to be honest I'm tired of pretending to be ok and normal it's just too draining 

 and if they leave it means they're not true friends and I'm sure I'll find people who will embrace me and be there for me 

thanks 

[Average Investor]

Yeah, I would let them know what is going on. It would hurt them much more to just ignore them. 

You can get past this though too. I use to have terrible anxiety in stores and places like that. It will take some time, but this kind of work you are seeing on the forum will put you on the right track. 

I get really bad anxiety with consuming even tiny amounts of caffeine. Not saying that is the cause, but life style can play a big part in this. So something to consider would be to work on your diet and exercise if you can. Mediation is amazing for anxiety as well. 

Edited November 13, 2021 by Average Investor

[Random witch]

@B_HAZ You're welcome! Good luck