By ivankiss
in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family,
So I've been considering a prostitute these days, a lot. I'm in a spot right now where I do not feel like approaching girls, dating or anything like that. I have no time and no will for it. Have other things on my mind.
What I wanna do, is just fuck somebody, without having to dance around it first.
I'm a 27yr old dude who had a lot of sex so far. Like, really, a lot. 5000 times, at least lol. So it's not like I'm incel, or lack experience in that area... it's just that I fucking love sex.
I'm approaching three months without any action, and it's kinda getting tough lol. In fact; this will be the longest period I went without getting any, since I lost my virginity. That may sound bizarre to some of you, but it's just something very natural to me. I view sex as a basic need. Almost like food or water. To me it seems it's a necessary component of a well balanced way of living. I'm more centred, more motivated and more creative when having sex. Is that a problem?
I realize this can be viewed as a form of addiction, but I don't think I'm in dangerous territory for now. I did not sleep with all too many girls. Just above 30, I'd say. Most of the sex I had was with girlfriends or fuck buddies. Barely a few one night stands. It's just that it was a pretty consistent thing. And now it's not anymore.
So what do I do? Should I give myself a break and pay for sex? I mean, taking a girl out for a dinner, a few fancy cocktails and whatnot, would probably cost me the same amount of money. And I might not even get laid.
I could also reach out to some old fuck buddies and take a longer ride to meet up with them, but idk, even that seems like too much effort. To much dance. I am very introverted these days. Really don't feel like interacting much, or opening up.
I just want to have sex. No talk, no dating, no drinks or dinners, no bs. No pretending like it's about anything else than what it is.
So is a hooker a good call right now? There are plenty of porn star level hookers in this city where I'm now staying. I found a website. Lots of options. And it's affordable. I would not mind too much about spending a few bucks on that.
I've been with 3 prostitutes in my life, way back, 7 or 8 years ago. One of those experiences was pretty much perfect. I had a great time. The other two were... ok. Nothing too mind blowing, but I did bust a nut lol.
The main reason I'm hesitant, is because I changed a lot since then, and I now view things in a different way. I've attained a much higher perspective on life. I'm thinking, what would that mean in terms of vibration, am I really a match to this experience, is this just my mind going through withdrawals and playing tricks on me, etc... There is a big possibility I'd walk away from the experience disappointed and unsatisfied - I feel. But there is also a huge chance it would turn out to be just what I needed. A little push. Some fuel.
I could get it out of my system and get back to doing the work, clear headed, at peace.
What do you think?