Inception (Journal)

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Post #21: Note to self

I’m still a slave, and I will be for a while. Everyday is an internal struggle towards freedom.

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Post #22: Weird

Things keep getting weirder. Reality keeps turning out to be different than how i expected it. What a strange world we live in, when you come to think of it. I still don't get it. I don't understand Leo either. Maybe I'm not supposed to?  But what I do know is that I love coffee. Just the thought of it makes me happy 

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Post #23: Too rigid

Trying to be a bit more feminine, doesn't mean anything goes though 

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Post #24: Purple

Purple is so mystical...

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Post #25: Catharsis

You're gonna need more than meditation to heal those wounds.

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Post #26: Sex

I'm revisiting the physiological need for that sweet sex. It's been years since I last got some, and years since the last time before that. Safe to say that I've had a drought for a long time. I guess you could say I've been neglecting this need... Which has left me with a huge shadow. Perhaps I will get into why in a future post. Also, I don't want to go about getting it in a roundabout or pay-to-win manner. I want to learn the game, not circumnavigate it.

Make sure to integrate your humanity before you transcend it

Edited December 28, 2024 by Inception

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Post #27: Imaginary friends

It's hard to be mad at someone when you realize they're imaginary. Hate can only exist when there's delusion. Disillusionment destroys hate.

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Post #28: Willpower

I want to get to the bottom of willpower. I will therefore be studying the subject for the foreseeable future. Once again Huberman proves invaluable, particular with his episode "How to Increase Your Willpower & Tenacity".

"No man is free who is not master of himself" - Epictetus

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Post #29: The bottom

I want to get to the bottom of everything. At least that what's it seems like

Edited January 3 by Inception

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Post #30: Maze

Life is a maze, so many twist and turns... So deceptive... So counter-intuitive. It's not straightfoward, don't expect it to. The confusion, complexity, deception, paradox, rules, exceptions to the rules. It's all on purpose 

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Post #31: Self-knowledge

Mind is currently in the process of understanding itself. That's all that's been happening, and will happen. Everything happens for this reason alone.

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Post #32: Forum

I'm going to rethink my relationship to and expectations from this forum 

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Post #33: Social circle

I want to find people in real life who are sincerely interested in understanding the mind. I have a hard time seeing myself spending significant amount of time with anyone without this commitment. For me this is a prerequisite for for close friendship and romantic relationship, which explains why I spend so much time alone. As to where I will find such people remains an open question, for now...

"I'm not anti-social, I'm anti-stupid"

"It is better to be alone than in bad company" - George Washington

"You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with" - Jim Rohn

Edited January 15 by Inception

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Post #34: Buckle up

I may have come a long way, but I still have a long way to go...

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Post# 35: Think again
If you think you understand the mind, you don't understand the mind. If you think you've outsmarted the mind, the mind has outsmarted you.

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Post #36: Predicament

The more I learn, the more i realize the depth of my predicament. I'm tempted to pity myself, but I try to have compassion instead. It seems that compassion, in large part, is having a non-judgemental understanding of the depth of someone's predicament.

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Post #37: Mind

The mind is on my mind.

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Post #38: Behind mental bars

I’m imprisoned by and within my own mind. I’m not going to escape by accident. It wasn’t designed to be easy.

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Post #39: Figuring it out

Advice to my younger (and present) self: It’s okay that you don’t have it all figured out, pretty much no one around you has (especially at your age group) even though they act like they do  Just another one of our collective illusions.

PS: Having it figuret out isn't about having a big fancy house

Edited Sunday at 11:30 PM by Inception