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Hehe I'm so done with part 1 and 2.

 

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"play stupid games and win stupid prizes" is the thought that comes to my mind recurrently. 

Now looking back at my own behavior, I'm asking myself - what the fuck was I doing in the first place? 

Why was I being so naive at understanding clues? 

Anyway im much smarter in the " social smart" sense, much more now than last year. All I needed was a bit of experience and education. Now I'm doing a good job at this. 

Still given my condition and situation this is not an easy feat for someone like me. 

 


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Make mental notes. 

If someone is not being serious, just don't deal with them. Adapt and learn. It's all about adaptation and not fighting. And what do you gain out of fighting anyway? Nothing. 

You don't need someone who doesn't understand you, doesn't take you seriously, doesn't talk seriously or acts seriously then let them go, they're not meant to be. 

These days I'm taking a lot of interest in art. It has come back again. 

The thumb rule in everything is karma. (dissociative thoughts). If someone acts in psychopathic ways their own karma will backfire, this happened to me as well and l learned my lesson. 

The difference between me and them is accountability. I admit that I must have done wrong things in my life (not too wrong or bad but wrong nevertheless), yet the one thing that distinguishes me by a huge margin is my ability to accept accountability for my actions. I simply admit and move on because what's there to hide once the cat is out of the bag..

Its not up to anyone to psychoanalyze me or others. 

Again disconnected thoughts. 

Language acts like chat fodder. There is a certain monotony to it.. Every question no matter how complex is broken down to the same stereotypical answer. It's almost like a rehearsal for a show or interview, you already know what you're going to say and you keep parroting the same response every time. Now this turns into some sort of language vocabulary in a way, I'm not talking about conventional vocabulary here. I'm talking about how language turns into a syntax and the same vocabulary or style is used over and over. 

For example, if my response to a situation is - 

Lets pick another example. 

I just read Leo's response to a post and it goes - 

Humorous, positive, deatched from outcome, confident in himself, assertive but very socially calibrated, non-controlling, self-amusing, not explicitly sexual in a vulgar way.

Creepy/scary guys fail on all those points.

Humor and playfulness makes her feel at easy. Creepy/scary guys are serious and lack humor.

Just being friendly and socially calibrated is huge. Creepy guys lack that calibration. They act like social retards.

 

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Yea someone might be good at - 

Talking cheap things in a cheap non offensive way and so????? 

 

 


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This is a good technique. I can simply cut the text I want and then refresh the page and stuff doesn't get lost.. 

So yea, what was I talking about? 

Language acts like chat fodder. There is a certain monotony to it.. Every question no matter how complex is broken down to the same stereotypical answer. It's almost like a rehearsal for a show or interview, you already know what you're going to say and you keep parroting the same response every time. Now this turns into some sort of language vocabulary in a way, I'm not talking about conventional vocabulary here. I'm talking about how language turns into a syntax and the same vocabulary or style is used over and over. 

For example, if my response to a situation is - 

Lets pick another example. 

I just read Leo's response to a post and it goes - 

Humorous, positive, deatched from outcome, confident in himself, assertive but very socially calibrated, non-controlling, self-amusing, not explicitly sexual in a vulgar way.

Creepy/scary guys fail on all those points.

Humor and playfulness makes her feel at easy. Creepy/scary guys are serious and lack humor.

Just being friendly and socially calibrated is huge. Creepy guys lack that calibration. They act like social retards.

This is an example of syntax I was talking about. Which means every time the same question is put forth, the same exact answer is rolled out. It's sort of a particular type or thing where no matter what the subject matter or no matter what the question and how differently it's worded, the response is the same and the style of delivery and tone remains the same as well. 

Thus a good communication pattern is made of many syntaxes. 

Those syntaxes keep repeating throughout like embroidery on fabric 

 

 


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I will talk about language later. 

Right now I was looking through some wigs and I felt like I could look like those if I wore those wigs. I'm not so much into wearing wigs and I have never worn a wig before. But these wigs were kinda tantalizing. 

So i was thinking how i would look if I put a wig on 

 

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If I wear a wig I would look somewhat like this. 

 

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Sometimes I can look like this (below) minus the hazel eyes. 

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Right now I'm thinking about Halloween costumes. Like witches vampires elves and fairies. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Some more Halloween costumes. 

 

 

 

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And some more 

 

 

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Seriously the best post ever. Bookmarking this. 

 

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Every time I see a person writing some truth here they get attacked like every time. 

Haha no surprises. 

I think almost all communities are like this. 

I thought this won't be like the chat room people. Nope. Same shit different website. That is all. The fake ass internet. Same passive aggressive bullshit and nonsense. 

I think all communities would be like this. 

And same racial abuse. 

Like I got racially abused on 3 or 4 different websites. Some people will use racial slurs. It's so common. 

What has my race got to do with anything? 

Like what the fuck. 

 

 

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If I had a child the first thing I'm going to teach them is language. 

Because that's where I lacked the most. 

I would want them to have strong language skills. 

 


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