Choosing the devil, selling soul, falsehood

[goldpower123]

At first I feel like I made a huge mistake or jeopardised my soul, I have glimpsed the Truth/God along my journey in the heart and it took me down a whole different path, divine love, etc.

It seems we can either choose our self or God. Is choosing the devil or the ego as a life path after glimpsing Absolute Truth bad or wrong? It felt like my only option. I feel like I've slowly strayed from that highest path over time to the point I had to let up. My brain was playing tricks on me, I was losing sleep, I came to the realization that if I want the Truth I can't have my self. So I chose my self, the tradeoff at first was so hard losing that self love in the soul and connection, knowing what I did.

Is this what they say the left hand path is or the selfish path, the devil, falsehood over Truth? I feel like this life and path is the life I never had. 

This stuff is literally the difference between life and death and what your blood is assigned too. 

My question is if you assign your soul to a path, can you change the path you're on? Get your soul back to God? Can anyone offer advice or opinion?

[Ilan]

15 minutes ago, goldpower123 said:

 Can anyone offer advice or opinion?

Listen to your heart