I'm in Hell. AMA (Ask me anything)

[Gili Trawangan]

@Blackhawk Are you physically healthy? I mean, do you live without any debilitating diseases or chronic pain?

[Blackhawk]

4 hours ago, Gili Trawangan said:

@Blackhawk Are you physically healthy? I mean, do you live without any debilitating diseases or chronic pain?

Yes.

[Gili Trawangan]

48 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

Yes.

@Blackhawk Look, I've been in hell before. I know what it's like, it can be really hard to turn it around. During my twenties I was more often than not depressed, and on top I had pain that didn't go away for years. Today things are very different, I am fulfilled, and the way this transformation occurred was through a change in perspective. The first step was crucial: I learned to be grateful for what I have. Gratitude is where it all starts, and it doesn't come from the outside world, you can't expect things to turn around without taking the first step yourself. Be grateful. If you're physically healthy, you already have so much to be thankful for. Two weeks ago I had a kidney stone and it was the most excruciatingly painful experience I've ever had. I can't tell you how lucky you are just by being healthy. The world will not change things for you, change has to come from you. Start here, "I am young and healthy, and I am grateful for that". Start a gratitude journal, what else can you be grateful for? It's all up to you.

[Blackhawk]

@Gili Trawangan Okay..

[Random witch]

I hope your mental state is better now.

I don't know if someone already asked you these question but I will:

What was your childhood dream?

How do you think the ideal world should be like?

 

[Blackhawk]

3 hours ago, Random witch said:

I hope your mental state is better now.

I don't know if someone already asked you these question but I will:

What was your childhood dream?

Thanks.

I didn't have any.

3 hours ago, Random witch said:

How do you think the ideal world should be like?

I assume you mean realistically.

I don't know.

[Blackhawk]

Just endless suffering.

Stop telling people to not kill themselves. It's not going to get better, so don't give false hope. Everyone and everything wants to hurt you as much as possible.

You are brainwashed into thinking that you must live at all cost, that suicide is always wrong.

Edited November 2, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

When you try to convince someone to not committ suicide you are just trying to convince that person to stay in hell. I would never do such a thing, that's for sure.

But of course I don't tell people to kill themselves either.. But it's their decision to make..

Edited November 2, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

For the suicidal ones you are damned if you do and damned if you don't.

If you kill yourself you will hurt others.  If you don't kill yourself you will hurt yourself (because being alive hurts).

See how masterfully designed hell is?

So anti-natalism is a no-brainer.

Edited November 2, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

Everything you do is an attempt to ease the suffering in hell for yourself or for someone else, in one way or the other.

[Blackhawk]

1 hour ago, toocrazytobecrazy said:

Accept your hell! that is your blessing . it will only get worse by fighting against it.

Doesn't help.

[Blackhawk]

2 hours ago, toocrazytobecrazy said:

That is what i am saying accept it if you can't change it.

Maybe you are scared of worse hells so this is what you need to go through.

Doesn't help.

[Blackhawk]

1 hour ago, toocrazytobecrazy said:

Nice!

No.

[snowyowl]

@Blackhawk  what's happened, only last week you had something to look forward to with Loba. I thought things were looking up for you? 

[4201]

16 hours ago, Blackhawk said:

See how masterfully designed hell is?

Isn't this a sweet compliment for the creator of hell?

Now the question is, who is designing it?

[Blackhawk]

48 minutes ago, snowyowl said:

@Blackhawk  what's happened, only last week you had something to look forward to with Loba. I thought things were looking up for you? 

Sometimes there's false hope given.

35 minutes ago, 4201 said:

Isn't this a sweet compliment for the creator of hell?

Now the question is, who is designing it?

It's not me, that's for sure.

[snowyowl]

3 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

Sometimes there's false hope given.

Ok, I guess you don't want to go into details with personal stuff here. Sorry it's not worked out for you. But you do have a choice whether to give up hope for the future, or (after a suitable time to get over it), dust yourself down, learn the lesson of what went wrong, and get out there again. 

[4201]

1 hour ago, Blackhawk said:

It's not me, that's for sure.

Who else could it be? Your neighbor?

[ted73104]

Everyone has a foot in hell no matter their circumstances. Maybe we should just learn to admit that we're just goddamn monsters and try to accept that fact for a moment, from time to time.