I'm in Hell. AMA (Ask me anything)

[Blackhawk]

About a week ago or something, just before work, I suddenly got a conviction that life here is hell.

The same day, at work, I saw this written on a thing (you can't tell by the picture, but it's a container which you put frozen food inside and it keeps it cold): 

And then the day after, I saw it again, in a different warehouse at work. At work we have hundreds of those things, the probability that I would see the exact same container two days in a row is extremely small.

So it was a double super-mega coincidence (if it was a coincidence).

8 hours ago, Loba said:

No I don't see a way out.

how long has this been going on?

I liked that thing about the basket. I don't know what supplies I need.

give it a thought and let us know! ?

I don't know.. 6 years maybe or something.

What I need is someone to talk with.

1 hour ago, Gianna said:

This is hell right here. How it starts, and how it fortifies. No one is willing to step into your reality. No one. Not even for a second so as to– as you say– understand you. Not only that, but they try to convince you that your reality doesn't exist. This makes it 1,000X worse because it pushes you deeper into it. And no one will acknowledge you in it. It's neglect. And so the message you get is, "You're not worth it. You're not worth considering." It's the worst fucking thing you can experience and yet people don't even care– even when "they do." 

I'll be in hell with you @Blackhawk. I'm already there, lol. We can be in hell together. 

Yes.

Edited October 21, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Rilles]

@Gianna

Or maybe you just THINK noone understands you... You really think out of 7 billion people noone has or is experiencing what you are experiencing. Come on man... 

[Rilles]

@Blackhawk You seem to have some form of clinical depression and I highly recommend you find a good therapist instead of hoping that this forum will help you. It literally says in the guidelines to seek help for serious issues. Were just random people here, were not trained for this. 

[Blackhawk]

12 minutes ago, Rilles said:

@Blackhawk You seem to have some form of clinical depression and I highly recommend you find a good therapist instead of hoping that this forum will help you. It literally says in the guidelines to seek help for serious issues. Were just random people here, were not trained for this. 

I don't need to talk with a good therapist.

What I need is:

1 hour ago, Blackhawk said:

What I need is someone to talk with.

 

[Rilles]

1 minute ago, Blackhawk said:

I don't need to talk with a good therapist.

What I need is:

 

Okay and why is that? Youre obviously looking for some way out of this, what do you hope to get out of talking with a non-professional?

Edited October 21, 2021 by Rilles

[Rilles]

@Blackhawk

Are you on medication? Are you for it or against it?

[Blackhawk]

4 minutes ago, Rilles said:

Okay and why is that? Youre obviously looking for some way out of this, what do you hope to get out of talking with a non-professional?

The whole problem is that I don't have anyone to talk (or write) with.

Just now, Rilles said:

@Blackhawk

Are you on medication? Are you for it or against it?

No.

In my case I'm against it.

Would medication solve my loneliness? No. So it wouldn't solve anything.

[Rilles]

26 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

The whole problem is that I don't have anyone to talk (or write) with.

Why is that? You have to deeply analyze what led you to your loneliness, go back in time, years back... it cant be only not being liked, even unlikeable people have friends, like narcissists for example.

Ps, I doubt youre that unlikeable. 

[Rilles]

Some questions to ask yourself:

How much do I trust other people?

How important are others opinion of me?

Have other people ever hurt me deeply?

What do I think of other people, what do my daily thoughts tell me about them, what are the core themes?

@Blackhawk

Edited October 21, 2021 by Rilles

[mandyjw]

@Blackhawk Your thoughts create your reality. It's not confirmation that life is a certain way, it's confirmation that what you give power to manifests. 

2 hours ago, Blackhawk said:

The whole problem is that I don't have anyone to talk (or write) with.

huh? .... the fuck is this then? What am I, a fart in a windstorm? 

Start to notice what you like, what you want, it's already here. Ta DA! Ta DA! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ta.....

 

 

 

 

DA!!!

 

[Gesundheit2]

Can you imagine a worse place?

[Blackhawk]

5 hours ago, mandyjw said:

@Blackhawk Your thoughts create your reality. It's not confirmation that life is a certain way, it's confirmation that what you give power to manifests. 

huh? .... the fuck is this then? What am I, a fart in a windstorm? 

Start to notice what you like, what you want, it's already here. Ta DA! Ta DA! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ta.....

 

 

 

 

DA!!!

 

Your 2 replies in this thread doesn't mean that I have someone to talk/write with.

I'm already noticing what I like and want, and I don't have what I like and want.

3 hours ago, Gesundheit2 said:

Can you imagine a worse place?

It can always get worse.

[Proserpina]

@Blackhawk

I know how you feel.  

Is there any part of you inside that can enjoy and bask in reality for its own sake? Can you try to find that part in you?

When things are hell for me that's what I always come back to. 

[Blackhawk]

25 minutes ago, Proserpina said:

@Blackhawk

I know how you feel.  

Is there any part of you inside that can enjoy and bask in reality for its own sake? Can you try to find that part in you?

When things are hell for me that's what I always come back to. 

Unfortunately no. I feel that reality is mind-boggling, mysterious, fascinating, etc, but it doesn't alleviate my pain.

Edited October 21, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Loba]

9 hours ago, Blackhawk said:

I don't know.. 6 years maybe or something.

What I need is someone to talk with

That's a long time!  I relate, I got stuck in hell for a good five years and recently got out.

You have this, you can talk with any one of us who are reaching out to you.  We want you to be happy and to have a good life!  We are rooting for you.

[Blackhawk]

9 minutes ago, Loba said:

That's a long time!  I relate, I got stuck in hell for a good five years and recently got out.

You have this, you can talk with any one of us who are reaching out to you.  We want you to be happy and to have a good life!  We are rooting for you.

But it has got worse. It keeps getting worse all the time.

Thanks, that's kind of you You are all kind.

Edited October 21, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Someone here]

On 10/17/2021 at 7:33 PM, Blackhawk said:

Probably a gf, someone who loves me.

This comment will probably make people think that I'm not actually suffering that much, but I am.

Lonely as in being single and unlovable.

@Blackhawk

So all you want is a gf? That's it? And you will be happy and enjoying life? 

[Blackhawk]

1 minute ago, Someone here said:

@Blackhawk

So all you want is a gf? That's it? And you will be happy and enjoying life? 

Here we go again.. People telling me what would and wouldn't make me happy. And people thinking that they know me and my situation better than I do. And people dismissing my likes and what I want.

[Rilles]

@Blackhawk Did you ignore my posts on purpose or did you miss them? I think they could help you make friends if you take them seriously. 

[Blackhawk]

5 minutes ago, Rilles said:

@Blackhawk Did you ignore my posts on purpose or did you miss them? I think they could help you make friends if you take them seriously. 

I saw the posts, but I don't know what to answer.