Hey guys, Yesterday I had my second psychedelic trip ever and it was utterly deep and beautiful. I'd like to share it here because writing it out like that helps my narrow logical mind to make sense of it. Also I hope that some experienced trippers / conciousness workers might be able to help me in gaining insight on how to continue from here. I think I know now what I want from psychedelics. I want absolute truth. I am pretty sure now that they can show me absolute truth. And I have a feeling that absolute truth is the answer to all my questions, the cure for all my wounds, the mother for all my children and the most meaningful and beautiful thing one could ever imagine. (Sorry for becoming so metaphorical).  If you read my report and have some ideas on how I might continue from here to gain more insight and continue my journey to absolute truth (in case absolute truth exists, don't know that yet but I believe it does) please comment down below. I really appreciate your feedback and it really helped me in the past. Final note: enjoy.   Brainstorming
    - I thought my 1st trip with 100ug was profound. It wasn't. 150ug was so much more powerful, it was an absolute "breakthrough dose", the perfect dose for me. Tolerance seems to be gone for me after 1 week. Good to know.
    - No words or description, no explanation could ever describe the reality (that I experience on LSD). It is absolute beauty, absolute perfection and absolute completeness, I'm literally in paradise
    - At the beginning of the trip: I want to unite with everything, love everything in a physical sense. I embrace my table, the floor, the bed, just everything. I want to become one with it. I feel unpleasant feelings like coldness in my body and instead of trying to get rid of them I want to unite with them and accept them as they are
    - Every feeling and perception is incredibly intense and distinct. On the other hand, nothing is "really different" in comparison to my everyday state of conciousness, the colors look the same as always, the only difference is that movements draw slight streaks and that I perceive space (the 3 dimensions) slightly differently. My field of vision is a bit narrower than usual
    - High point: I am in the now. In the here and in the now. I burst into tears. The world I knew has disappeared. I have neither an idea of it, nor a memory of it. Nothing that people know in everyday life exists anymore. No logic, no time, no separation, no problems, no fear, no identity, no self, no doubts, pure beauty, pure perfection, pure completeness. Everything is perfectly complete, accepted, part of everything, everything is one
    - All the questions I wrote down before the trip seem meaningless in face of the absolute perfection of the here and now. No answer, no description could put into words the incredible completeness of the present moment. No question and no answer could add anything to the absolute perfection of the now
    - Everything becomes one, everything becomes me, there is no longer any separation between me and anything. My voice and my body are as much me as it is the ground or the rest of the world
    - The perfection, beauty, completeness is overwhelming, it is painful how beautiful everything is
    - Everything feels so perfect and complete that me jumping out the window and killing myself wouldn't matter
    - The problem with the here and now is, it's so perfect and complete that there are no problems
    - Everything I do, I do fully, 100%. I feel the need for fresh air and I tear open my window. I want to love the ground and try to embrace it hoping to become one with it physically. I have no doubt about anything anymore, nothing is thought about anymore
    - During the whole trip my body is extremely relaxed. All the muscles are loose, there is no tension, just the way it should be. The day after, I can relax my body in a way that I could never do before
    - I realize during the trip that I don't have to be afraid of anything. The only thing I could be afraid of is myself. And in view of the absolute beauty that is in everything (and therefore in me) it seems absurd to be afraid of anything
    - Coming out of the trip, playing the piano, I could clearly see that it is not me playing the piano. Impulses come out of nowhere into my hands, into my fingers that make them play the piano in a perfect way without my doing. I can fight against these natural impulses, interrupt the natural flow of "life" by trying to "play by myself"   Things that seemed significant to me within the trip, that I wanted to give to my "normal" self:
    - One cannot emphazize strongly enough, how utterly important it is to love. I should love everything, simply everything without restriction
    - I really should know, that in the here and now everything is perfect and complete
    - The here and now is so perfect and complete that it allows everything. I am allowed to do anything I want. I am allowed to love and I am allowed to hate. None of this could make the here and now less perfect. I can just do whatever I want and everything is perfect.   Interpretation of the trip/conclusion
    - I know absolutely NOTHING in my everyday consciousness. I am so closed and constricted in my view of reality in my everyday consciousness that it is hard to beat it in absurdity.
    - Psychedelics have an unbelievable, unimaginable power and an unbelievable, unimaginable potential to open people's eyes to realities whose existence they could not have imagined even in their wildest dreams
    - With absolute certainty, this experience was the most profound and beautiful experience of my life so far. I cannot imagine that any human experience (e.g. the birth of a child, or extremely good sex) could even come close to the absolute perfection and completeness I have experienced   - I should try in future trips to really observe how I keep trying to "superimpose" rationalizations and subtle explanations/descriptions on my direct experience
    - I will try to meditate more often to see if I can find absolute beauty and perfection in the here and now even in the LSD-free state   Questions whose answers I would like to know, but have not yet found with certainty:
    - Who am I really? Am I everything? 
    - Does God exist? Have I experienced God?
    - Is it possible to reach states of consciousness that give one unquestionable knowledge? I guess not, the only way to unquestionability is probably to be free of doubts in the here and now
    - Can I trust a state of consciousness just because I am free of doubt IN THAT state of consciousness?