the impact of lying to oneself on one's intellect and emotions

[Guardian]

in essence simple

one is facing a realization pointing to a higher truth

once faced it is in your immediate awareness or comprehension

there are two paths to follow, one either denies its legitimacy or seeks accepting and integrating what implications one makes of it for oneself.

if the denial is chosen, the realizations truth is twisted in need to be continuously pushed out of one's immediate awareness ( comprehension ).

when its truth is twisted, one's mind is preoccupied with upholding a false ( false in relation to what it could be when the realization is allowed )  belief system.

this false belief system is then held as dear in an emotionally perverted way where the emotion to it is synthetic draining one emotionally and possibly leading to further lies of telling oneself that those emotions are authentic, which is another lie taking up space in one's mind that could instead be reserved for truth. ( both hinder authentic reaction )

when further aspects of the denied realization are perceived in something else, it is done so under the pre-existing twist of the realizations truth      leading to a miss-aligned conclusion about the perceived "something else", one that favoures one's position not to change ( because innitialy the realizations legitimacy was denied for that reason ) .

this process is an intellectual burden

this process can iterate until one has overwhelmed oneself

 

Edited October 9, 2021 by Guardian

[Guardian]

This is the reason why someone's ontology can be linked to their depression.

Depression starts to occure, when one has started to realize at least the falsehood of the emotionality behind the denial of a realization.

Edited October 9, 2021 by Guardian

[Guardian]

Paranoia is a strong interplay (more so struggle) between realization and its denial within oneself where intuition is pushing strongly for the higher but there is also a strong unwillingness to accept.

Edited October 9, 2021 by Guardian