My name is Hannu, I'm an INFJ Loner, Introverted Shy Girl

[Preety_India]

My name is Hannu. 

Recently when I took the MBTI test, the result was INFJ-T. 

This is almost my identity. 

It defines me perfectly. I have always been shy and introverted. 

 

Edited October 8, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

After seeing the dating section, I lost all interest on this forum. 

Just being honest. 

One glance and I feel like vomiting. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Characteristics or traits of INFJ-T 

 

Lets see. 

 

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Omg I just read everything about INFJ-T and it completely matches me word to word. 

They are also only 1% of a population, the rarest MBTI. 

 

 

 

 

Edited October 8, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

These days a bit relieved and happy 

 

[Preety_India]

12 minutes ago, Marcel said:

Me too Hannu. Everything’s slowly turning calm and peaceful around me and it’s all thanks to you.

I love and adore you forever ?

Thank you for being an angel. You are my everything. 

 

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@Marcel my heart dropped when you said these words do me. 

Honestly you're like a poet

 

 

"I love and adore you so much. You have made me the highest mountain top because you raised me from the deepest depth of the toxic oceans. My wasteland desert of emotions has turned into a flowery utopia." 

[Preety_India]

 

These days I feel like I'm in a happy place. 

But still I got so much stuff to do and I feel so tired 

 

First I want to build a large garden around my house 

I went out to collect some plants but because of Covid the shop was closed. 

I'm still a bit wary of going out. 

It seems the cases have gone down a bit and so my Covid nightmares aren't that frequent anymore. 

 

 

                

 

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Today for the first time in months I spoke to my brother. 

It felt a sense of relief. 

We talked for full 1 hour. 

It was his friends birthday. 

They were going out. 

I'm so proud of him.

 

He has achieved so much in life 

 

Although two months back he told me to commit suicide and that made me very upset and I stopped talking to him. 

He was being pressured by my mom. 

So he gave into that pressure and told me to kill myself. 

It was incredibly rude and awful. 

 

 

 

But after many days he has felt like talking to me. 

He is my only sibling. 

 

 

 

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Honestly I feel so relieved that I left this forum. 

So much better and peaceful. 

No more arguments and no more trouble. 

Why didn't I think of this before? 

But anyway it was a huge learning lesson after being here for 1 year on the forum. 

I have been here for 3 years out of which I spent at least 1 year on the forum. Rest I spent on the journals and I will say it was time best spent because I learned so much about writing. 

I feel so confident now. 

My brother has a garden where he grows chilli, orca, collards, bitter gourd, ridge gourd and zinnia and oh my God he has Periwinkles too. 

He showed me a picture of his Periwinkles. 

My boyfriend is planning to grow Periwinkles as well which is awesome and I'm planning to grow Periwinkles as well. 

My mom had grown Periwinkles in my garden for almost a year and recently she discarded it because it grew too big and she was tired of caring for it 

 

I had no interest in Periwinkles up until now when my boyfriend called me a Periwinkle endearingly. 

So i got fixated on Periwinkles. 

The biggest excitement is that my brother has Madagascar Periwinkles. 

That's awesome (Right Hannu!!!) 

Madagascar Periwinkles Oh My God, I always wanted them. 

Monee is sleeping right now.. And I'm writing. 

I hope Monee finds pink Periwinkles and grows them. He even got a pink pot yesterday, and that's a miracle for both of us. 

 

I love pink Periwinkles. 

But the Madagascar ones are dark pink. 

 

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Just reading the dating section again 

I mean I was a bit addicted to that section. It messes with my head. 

I have to constantly remind myself that I should not read that section. It upsets my mood. So I consciously try to avoid reading it as much as possible. 

A lot of Comments there are simply unbelievable and shocking. I don't like it 

My main source of trigger is that section. 

However people are people. One cannot say don't have so and so opinion. After all there is freedom of opinion. 

So it's best to not take it too seriously. 

And also if someone has a bad opinion then it's they who are impacted the most. You become what you think is the principle. 

Generally I see a lot of backward thinking on this forum especially the dating section. It doesn't fit my personality because I don't think such a way, I have an open mind when it comes to relationships and romance 

 

The dating section has a patriarchal smell or rather a patriarchal stink to it. Every time I see a patriarchal notion it triggers me big time. It makes me want to vomit. 

Aren't we living in 21st century?

Why do we still expect women to follow patriarchal standards of femininity and why are men supposed to dictate how a woman should or shouldn't be. It's kinda awful. 

But enough of that. I don't want to ruin my mood again 

It's just that I feel very uncomfortable when I read patriarchal stuff because I come from a patriarchal country where living as a woman is a mental gymnastic. 

I faced a lot of sexism at my job. I was harassed on my way to work. 

I was groped and touched inappropriately. And the law doesn't help women in my country. Most families simply tell the girl to not go out. 

I don't wish to be dictated on what I should do as a woman. 

Fortunately the conditions in my country are getting better because girls in my country are ready to fight back. 

We don't take shit from men anymore. 

 

 

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I don't read that Hannu thing. Oh c'mon now.... (*giggles) 

 

So I'm back at being myself and being with myself albeit and apart from my boyfriend who is almost my mirror image. He says things that I'm always absolutely in agreement with. 

He is so funny. I'm just rolling on the floor. 

At least in this whole wide world there is one person who understands me perfectly. Now that's a huge satisfaction. 

He is the best thing. He makes me laugh. We need to grow Periwinkles together. 

 

 

 

 

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The forum had raised my tension to dangerous levels 

 

But my boyfriend calmed me down. He has this miraculous ability to calm me. 

Every time I think of him I'm taken to another world

Well his advice was helpful. He told me to leave the forum and frankly that was the best advice he gave me.