Trouble visioning since future looks shittier than present

[Bob Seeker]

I know that visioning can help motivate us if the vision is inspiring, but I'm headed back into wage slavery that will last god knows how long and I feel like I'm gonna lose so much, and have little time to nurture my soul and do my passions. 

Anyone have experience creating a motivating vision in a similar situation?

I mean I could envision a successful dating life, and that's exciting, but I almost feel like I will be cheating if I do that while I'm a wagie, instead of putting all chips into LP, which seems so elusive. If I don't date though, I will keep on going without any dating life, and I'm 23 and never had a relationship or anything positive in dating really. Seems depressing no-matter how I cut it.

idk, maybe I'll just psych myself up for dating and let the chips fall where they may

Edited September 28, 2021 by Bob Seeker

[Thought Art]

Yeah, I would vision short term of how you are going to enjoy your work everyday despite it not being the most ideal thing. And how you are going to use what free time you have for maximum clarity, health and joy. Also, visioning yourself using the free time to be productive towards the next chapter.

Simply vision it being what it is, and enjoying it. 

[Bob Seeker]

@Thought Art @Fearey  Thanks. I think part of my issue is isolation. I live around family that doesn't understand me, and have no friends locally, only a few long-distance friendships that I hardly call. This makes everything seem way more meaningless. 

I am going to try to move to a new city as soon as I possibly can, with the best job I can get, and then work on my dating life. I don't know if it's the smartest move but it's only one I have enough motivation for.

I'll save as much money as reasonable to put toward life purpose while working, and see if any inspiration starts stirring in me, because I have no inspiration right now. 

[Hello from Russia]

I'd forget about dating life for now and not get too excited by it and work directly on making your income met by yourself, not by 9-5 job. It is hard, but not THAT hard