My beloved nan (guardian since I was little) passed away

[RMQualtrough]

She had bile duct cancer which had spread. She was a victim of a blood transfusion mishap many many many years ago which gave her a lifelong liver condition.

Before she died she was very incoherent. She became coherent for just a brief moment and what she wanted to communicate is that she had a dream. When my grandad asked what she dreamt of, she said "cross" and smiled then went back to being incoherent.

We think she saw some sort of religious imagery like the crucifix... I don't really think the exact symbols matter but rather what they represent about the mindspace... Perhaps she reached some sort of understanding of something divine.

I don't really know what or how I feel about the matter. I cried for about 2 minutes otherwise I am most often feeling some sort of general difficulty... I'm not sure if there is a delayed reaction waiting for me.

[gettoefl]

i am glad you got to spend these last moments together

you won't get over it, you will get though it

sending my condolences and sympathy to you sincerely for your loss