How can I manage my uncertainty so I can keep moving forward?

[TompsterLobster]

I am currently having trouble with feelings of uncertainty. This uncertainty erodes any excitement I have about getting work done. 

This month, I am dedicating myself full time to my own business, which means I really need to keep a clear and focused mind so I stay afloat. Furthermore, I am trying to make money so I can afford the final procedure of a medical issue I have struggled with for years. 

I live alone, and I am doing this alone. It's just hard to keep moving forward when there is only so much that can be done in a single day, especially when my mind is taken by fearful thoughts like "What if the medical procedure goes wrong? What if I am never healthy?" (Even though I have every reason to have faith in it.) This week I have spent about half of every day just managing my anxiety, which is really just a euphemism for distracting myself. 

My current plans have been well formed, and I decided on them from a very balanced place, so I do want to follow through with them, I just wish I could stay in the headspace I was in when I so confidently decided on them. 

How do you keep your mind clear, determined and goal oriented when the what-ifs start to crawl in like the zombies in the movie The Night of the Living Dead? 

Edited September 28, 2021 by TompsterLobster

[Mason Riggle]

@TompsterLobster recognize that anxiety is one end of a spectrum (depression being at the other).. anxiety can be thought of as 'the mind being attached to notions of the future' (what if, what if, what if) where as depression is the mind being attached to notions of the past (I should have... it should have been.. if only things had been..).   Becoming aware of this in moments of anxiety, and redirecting focus back to the present moment will quell anxiety or depression. 

You can consciously practice bringing your attention to whatever is true of your present experience and literally notice the anxiety wash away (unless of course your current experience calls for you to feel anxiety, such as an immediate threat to survival, in which case increased adrenaline etc. are appropriate).