The first bad trip

[Vlad_]

Good evening (morning) guys! 
Couple days ago I decided to try weed+ magic mushrooms, because as I was thinking I’m serious psychonaut ?. I’d done more than 20 trips on shrooms, so I thought that it’s about time to go further in my trips. I bought 15 grams of magic truffles and a huge pure joint, because I was told that truffles are not as strong as “normal” shrooms, so I decided to mix them with weed. I ate the shrooms and after 15 minutes I smoked the joint. When I finished smoking I was fucked, but only because of the weed! Another mistake of mine - I wasn’t at home. I started walking faster to get to my hotel room before shrooms start effecting me. As soon as I closed the door of my room I realized that I’m fucked. I don’t remember a lot of things that were happing to me, but the most profound ones I’m going to describe. 
My body started shaking like I was sitting on an electric chair, so I had to lay down on the bed. It didn’t help. Then I started feeling pain in my chest, I thought I was dying, but at the same time I realized that it doesn’t matter. Than I start seeing some kind of visions. My identity begun to extend so I was identifying with a lot of things. Most of them were awful: maniac’s victims, raped women and kids, killed animals, but at the same time I was the manic, I was the rapist. Also I was feeling like someone was killing me in a variety of ways. I was feeling something inside my body, like another type of body,  it was struggling to leave my human body.  In my head I heard a lot of noise and strange thoughts which were appearing in some kind of forms, but not physical. I was trying to resist, but than I managed to let it go. I don’t know how but I grabbed my phone and played some relaxing music. It helped me and than the whole trip wasn’t bad anymore. It become amazing, indescribable. I identified as flowers, green grass in the morning, child inside it’s mother, I was the planet earth, the space, the sun. I realized how I die and reborn again, but I can’t explain it with words, it’s impossible to explain nor it’s possible to understand mentally. It is possible only as direct experience. I was conscious of the fact that I’m God, I’m everything and everything is Me. I remember that I was conscious of all of these things. Now it’s just memories of my ego identity. 
The point here is not to fool around with psychedelics, otherwise they will fuck you in the ass. Literally. Guys be caution, psychedelics can be dangerous.

[impulse9]

Interesting, thanks for sharing.

Idk why but I'm way more interested in bad trips than good ones, lol.