Why is my life so painful?

[jake473]

Thanks for answering. 

Edited September 25, 2021 by jake473
Said too much. Doesn't matter since only 3% of the people that viewed it attempted to help me anyway (Which I appreciated.) And I'm okay anyway.

[GreenWoods]

I'm sorry to hear about all the suffering you have to go through.

I suppose you have already tried many things to improve your situation. If all of that doesn't work, and you don't see hope in improving your situation with normal means, then I recommend you try asking angels for help.

Get the book archangels of magick by Damon Brand (ebook is fine) and go to the chapter "chrisis magick". And do that several times, for all major aspects of your life. And then use the "archangels sigils of power" for all minor aspects of your life. Do as much as possible. 

Also get the book "Angelic sigils keys and calls" by Ben Woodcroft.

I feel like this stuff could actually help you. 

If you think this doesn't work, read the reviews on Amazon.

But still keep trying everything you can with normal means.

[Staples]

@jake473 You have no control over the initial circumstances of your life, or other people's actions. You can control what you do right now.

You could surrender, but that would only rob you of your only duty, which is improvement. 

Your only duty is to work as fully as you can towards an improved existence. And if you are doing that then your duty on this earth as a human will be totally fulfilled in that moment.

Seek professional therapy, seek a remedy for your chronic illness. Even if you only have 45 minutes a day out of bed. Use it.

You got this.

[Breakingthewall]

life clearly indicates the way forward: total transcendence. you have to reach the complete dissolution of your ego, to purify yourself completely. no trace of preference. you have to die completely and be completely empty. I would forget about psychological treatment and any attempt to heal your personal history. you have to leave it behind, change the skin like a reptile. it is fortunate since any personal story is a burden, but almost no one is capable of transcending it. I would use psychedelics without a doubt, any means at my disposal. nothing to lose. None of us have anything to lose, except mirages, but in your case that is more evident, that is all. embrace your suffering because it is the door to infinity. the last will be the first, you know