Trauma, my ego

[Esilda]

2 hours ago, Esilda said:

 

 

 

NO MORE UNDESIRED GAWKERS

 

NO MORE UNDESIRED SEXUALLY EXPLICIT PM'S

 

 

 

 

 

 

Honestly.... Flattered  but... NO.

I've made it perfectly clear that I have a bf that we're just on a break right now.

 

It's been rather weird anyway... observing my own face constantly... its made me feel a little insecure actually, noticing all of my little flaws... I feel much freer being myself on here without my own face as my profile picture 

 

Feeling good, feeling refreshed, feeling cosy, about to go the afternoon spa  .

 

 

 

 

 

I am a fear prone animal so please be sweet and kind  .

 

A clear "N...O" to dick pics.

(won't have to worry about anymore  )

And yes to pictures of cute animals! 

 

Thank yoU!
 

...  last time I put up a picture of myself publicly though yikes!  ...

 

 

Edited March 14, 2022 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

Ugh, I'm so sorry you were subjected to that, that must have felt so violating. 

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts Oh its NOT that lol, just simply not interested in the persons. Impress then there won't be distress! 

 

 

NEW TRANSITION!   

 

Moving forward... Somewhere within me.... this journal is now dedicated to my transition from trauma to my journey to enlightenment.

My body has felt so "activated" throughout my life that I have to spend a lot more time deconditioning a lot of my behaviour.

For whatever that's worth.. Jumping into that mystery.... 

Edited March 14, 2022 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

@Esilda Okay good, glad to hear it.  

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts thank you for being supportive it really means a lot to me, I would have left the forum a lot earlier otherwise if people weren't  . People reaching out has helped a lot in the past  

Edited March 14, 2022 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

@Esilda You're so welcome, you're one of those people I just instinctively liked from the start so I'm glad if I could help.  People reached out to me in the past when I was having a really hard time, too, so I know just what a blessing that can be.  

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts I feel the same way Ricky  . I felt really insecure sometimes here and peoples comments really helped me a lot  .

@Loba Cute sunset  . Thank you as well Loba, you were one of the first people to make me feel welcome on the forum.

Edited March 14, 2022 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

13 minutes ago, Loba said:

@RickyFitts He's reaching out cause you're a cute girl.  That's it.  No bravery or valiance at all.  None.

"Nice guy"

Excuse me? Are you second-guessing my motives when you don't know the first thing about me?

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts @Loba Respectfully, please take any dispute you two may have with one another via PM.

Thanks so much to the both of you for being supportive .

Let's keep the energy here right .

[RickyFitts]

@Loba Respect Esilda's wishes, Loba, this is her thread.

[Esilda]

@Loba I've commented a lot on other peoples journals as well though, I don' tget it 

I don't want to stop either, I like socialising .

@RickyFitts its alright darl nothing to worry about  just take it in ur stride .

Hoping you can join too Loba. Peacefully 

Edited March 15, 2022 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

I only have eyes for one woman, Loba (I mentioned my relationship with her to Esilda privately recently), I like Esilda but I've always thought of her as a favourite sister.

Edited March 15, 2022 by RickyFitts

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts Figuratively a sister, otherwise that's a bit weird  but yes this is true 

[Esilda]

15 hours ago, Esilda said:

@RickyFitts Oh its NOT that lol, just simply not interested in the persons. Impress then there won't be distress! 

 

 

NEW TRANSITION!   

 

Moving forward... Somewhere within me.... this journal is now dedicated to my transition from trauma to my journey to enlightenment.

My body has felt so "activated" throughout my life that I have to spend a lot more time deconditioning a lot of my behaviour.

For whatever that's worth.. Jumping into that mystery.... 

 

New transition...

 

New transition...

 

New transition...

 

New transition...

 

Please respect  

[RickyFitts]

@Esilda Yeah sorry, I meant to say 'like a favourite sister'.  

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts you're not 'like' my favourite brother but you're a cool cat : , still getting to know one another!