The Script

[Vision]

6 hours ago, ivankiss said:

I'd like to thank @Vision for inspiring me to do some digging on my personality type - INFJ. I find the information fascinating. Resonance is high.

Back when I took the test, I did not want to get too attached to the result. I took it all with a grain of salt. But now that I'm in this phase of character development, it seems relevant to dive a bit deeper into it and connect some dots. Fun!

Godspeed mate 

[ivankiss]

Last night, I've been listening to and reading about how rare, unique and special I am, for two hours straigh.

Of course I had to masturbate.

[ivankiss]

Yup. This is what God sounds like.

Walking meditation by the sea. Lovely vibes.

[ivankiss]

INFJs and decision making:

 

Strengths:

INFJs

• Take a thoughtful, collaborative approach to problem solving and decision making

• See and integrate many diverse possibilities and options for improving situations in the future

• Look for common ground and seek creative ways to respect diversity and meet peoples’ needs

• Want to do comprehensive research into the implications and consequences of decisions; tuned into how decisions may affect the people involved

• Once a decision is made, create a structured implementation plan that capitalizes on the strengths of the people involved

Challenges:

INFJs

• Want to consider and explore problems and decisions thoroughly and may find it difficult to make quick decisions

• May disengage when decision-making or problem solving processes become overly logical or focused only on short term solutions

• Tend to think a problem or decision through internally and may not share all their exploratory data and ideas with others

Cautions:

INFJs

• May overly complicate a decision and think about it in a more complex way than others would prefer

• Wanting to explore multiple ideas and yet also wanting to come to a decision may create an unpleasant internal tension for INFJs

• The INFJs sense of what should be done to value and respect the people involved in a decision can sometimes come across to others as moralistic or judgmental

 

by Donna Dunning

[ivankiss]

The label feels kinda heavy to carry around, but I cannot deny the resonance. Most of the information I came across so far, is quite spot on. Very relatable.

It's kinda fucking with a belief in my mind that keeps repeating: 'There is no identity.'

[ivankiss]

WHEREVER I MAY ROAM

...and the road becomes my bride
I have stripped of all but pride
So in her I do confide
And she keeps me satisfied
Gives me all I need

...and with dust in throat I crave
Only knowledge will I save
To the game you stay a slave

Rover, wanderer
Nomad, vagabond
Call me what you will

But I'll take my time anywhere
Free to speak my mind anywhere
And I'll redefine anywhere

Anywhere I roam
Where I lay my head is home

...and the earth becomes my throne
I adapt to the unknown
Under wandering stars I've grown
By myself but not alone
I ask no one

...and my ties are severed clean
The less I have the more I gain
Off the beaten path I reign

Rover, wanderer
Nomad, vagabond
Call me what you will

But I'll take my time anywhere
I'm free to speak my mind anywhere
And I'll never mind anywhere

Anywhere I roam
Where I lay my head is home

Carved upon my stone
My body lie but still I roam

Wherever I may roam
Wherever I may roam

[ivankiss]

Believing in and turning 'no-self' into an identity is a delusion deeper than believing one is a unicorn. Or a human being.

I balanced out a lot of those polarities, already. But there still seems to be some distortion left in my mind. It's in my way.

I know that's just a part of the path. All must go. Even the stuff that once served you and assisted you in your awakening. And especially all that 'no this, no that' kind of business.

The Realization of God is not God.

The belief in no-self is not no-self.

It's self-deception.

[ivankiss]

3 rounds of DMT alkaline breathing, followed by the breath of fire. 65bpm. Ratio 1:1

Falling asleep to delta waves.

 

[ivankiss]

These last few nights, I've been having weird as fuck dreams. Extremely vivid, too. I imagine it's connected to this transition.

Heading to the city centre soon. I've got a very specific job in mind, that I'd like to secure. If not; I'll settle for what's available.

Been spending a lot these days, and earning nothing. I need that good money.

[ivankiss]

Some paper-work/documentation needs to be done first. Things function a bit differently here when it comes to getting a job. I ain't a fan of all that stuff, it's kinda getting on my nerves, but there's no way around it.

This is the not so fun part of it all.

[ivankiss]

Massive protest going on in the city. I'm joining in for fun.

[ivankiss]

MIRAGE

Join in with me
We'll fly on someone else's wings
To where everybody is one

Above the sky we read
It's written black on white
The truth, follow the lead

Echoes of the same old psalm
Sing with me
In unity
Join in with me

I have been trying to break out for too long
From the cage
I found my path when I thought that I was wrong

Stay close to me
I'll show you what you need to see

Close your eyes
Trust in me
I'll be your guide blindly

Join in with me
I'll be your guide

I have been trying to break out for too long
From the cage
I found my path when I thought that I was wrong

[ivankiss]

Fucking epic night. Hung out and sang to everything from Ex-Yu, over Hungarian to Italian songs. Fucking magical. Kinda drunk.

About to pass out any moment now.

[ivankiss]

Got drunk AF to this

Cried like lil bitch to this

And danced like there's no tomorrow to this

And many, many more

 

[ivankiss]

Experience.

It's moments like this that I live for.

Depth. Warmth. Connection. Unity. Heart. Love.

Fucking beautiful.

Good night, dear world.

[ivankiss]

Last night was unexpected as fuck. Life sure has its ways... It was a beautiful experience.

Feeling a bit off now.. I drank quite a lot.

Today is dedicated to deep rest, self-care, grooming..

Going out for a nice, rich meal, soon.

[ivankiss]

I love it when I forget about a piece of music that I wrote, and then 'accidentally' come across it again. It gives me the opportunity to listen to it through brand new ears. From a totally new perspective.

It's a very cool experience.

I wrote/recorded essence and absolution some months ago, at the very beginning stage of this transformation of mine. It was sort of an experiment... I wanted to try out something new. I think there is big potential in this style. I'm sure I'll come back to it at some point. What I'm working on right now though, is a completely different world.

[Hulia]

20 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

I wrote/recorded essence and absolution 

beautiful!

[ivankiss]

@Hulia Grazie! 

[Hulia]

@ivankiss de nada!