Scared During Happiness

[Barack Obama]

Do you guys get that feeling when everything is going great and you are happy and eveything. That this is going to backfire soon and you are gonna be depressed and just generally not going to feel good?

I mean i don't think i'm a pessimist but the thought just pops up randomly in my head sometimes. i don't give it alot of attention but today i was like.. Soon everything is going for the worst.. How do i deal with these weird thoughts

[dystopia]

Everyone has a default state that they feel comfortable in. Regardless of whether you're temporarily happy or sad, you usually return to your base state of being. Once you start observing what that is, you can work on raising yourself to a higher default vibration. 

I understand this feeling because I spent many years being depressed, having anxiety, and even being suicidal. I spent so long in a state of constant panic or misery that I would find it odd when I was actually having fun or things were flowing well, for once. 

You have to remember though: you are responsible for your moods. No one can make you feel any way unless you let them. This was explained in one of Leo's videos...it might have been the Stop Being a Victim one. I highly recommend you watch Leo's How To Stop Being a Victim and then watch How To Master & Control Your Emotions. Those videos really helped me with letting go of the belief that I wasn't fully in control of my happiness.

I'm still not at the best place I want to be. However, I feel way better by default compared to how I normally felt a year ago. If you want to be lazy, you let yourself be negative or blah by default, but realize that you can change your default mood, if you want to. It takes effort to be happy. Allow yourself to feel good even when you don't think you deserve to. You are worthy just by being alive. 

Btw I almost made my sn Michelle Obama now I wish I had lol.

Edited February 10, 2016 by shouldnt

[stantheman]

Every day.  But being intentional about knowing that you have control over the outcome is the key to it.  I find that my issues are about fear of not being able to recover from negative events.   

I am trying to remember that part of that control is setting up a positive and supportive environment even if you have to disconnect from some people that you can't live without - including family.

[Truth]

I think of it as a automatic negative thought habit, because it pops up out of know where, and for a moment it kills and sucks all the joy out, you almost feel vulnerable.

the ego trying to protect itself from an "attack". I think you should look into homeostasis to get more awareness and understanding of this.

Leo has a video not directly related to this, but he still covers it in here http://actualized.org/articles/how-to-stop-backsliding

Edited February 10, 2016 by Truth

[Phrae]

I don't know if you're self sabotaging or not. If you're not used to being happy then it's probably attempts at self sabotage. You're not used to feeling this way. You need the courage to brace through it and to cut these negative thoughts. You will adapt soon enough.