Looking for help, advice or guidance I guess. New to Leo

[Raleigh1984]

Hallo everyone. I have only come across Leo and Actualised.org just a few days ago and have been listening and have to say, everything is resonating with me. This discovery comes at quite a cross roads in my life as Im not sure which direction to take however, I am very very very lost. When I was 21 I wrote a book called the Dichotic Dilemma the fabric of life, and I guess it was my 1st insight into duality. My most recent edition of this is called The Dichotic dilemma the fabric of life, the fourth dimension, from duality to reality. I dont even know what this means as these books are stream of consciousness. What I do know is in 2016 I went to a Vipassana 10 day meditation retreat and that changed my life forever, for the worst so far. I had a transcendent experience but when I came out a few days later I had a psychotic episode, then suicidal depression after that for 2 years. Ive had 2 relapses so 3 episodes in total and Im not sure what all this means. All I know is so far listening to Leo, I have instinctively agreed and intuitively understood every single thing he says. I havent disagreed with anything but dont know what any of all this means as I battle with my own mortality.

Can anyone help?

Edited August 15, 2021 by Raleigh1984
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[gettoefl]

you're in the right place, welcome and make yourself at home, be sure to watch leo's video each week, today's episode is a corker

[Waken]

Maybe not too much thinking and worrying and a little more relaxing and letting go?

[Adamq8]

Try to relax your mind, look around you, appreciate this moment, and say to yourself that it is fine i will figure stuff out but for this moment i will just relax, try to find satisfaction and look at existence and feel it, without expecting something to happen or that you need answers, answers will come sooner or later IF you relax your attention qnd focus on existence,  conciousness and just being 

[Bob Seeker]

Know that you can trust your own experience and no need to judge it, even if it doesn’t fit into what society or family tells you is “correct”

 Usually  it is best to focus the majority of your energy and time  on personal development if you are not already in a position of abundance and feel lack.

use your judgment and know that you can take your time. There is no rush. 
it’s usually best to focus on one area of improvement at a time.

 

Edited August 16, 2021 by Bob Seeker