100ug LSD - The Love of Creation

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Man, I hate LSD. Felt like a four hour come up. Thought about calling it a day and returning next week with a higher dose. Alas, the trip didn’t even start lol. 

Man, I love LSD. The insights were pure gold. 

 

Gotta admit, the last months were pretty bumpy for me. Main thing I struggled with was the notion that I needed to „practice“ so my LP can „make progress“. 

By this way of living I created two points of myself. Point one is right here struggling and point two is somewhere off in the future. 

Truth is, there is only one point. I am already where I (don't) want to be. There is no need for practice, purification, hard work or any other form of Tit for Tat. What is needed is the act of creating itself. On and onwards. You could call that practice lol. Though I do not like this phrase anymore. 

Such a relief. 

 

Another thing I did not understand was the World at large. 

Do I live in a world that rejects me, conspires against me and keeps me down? Or does the world conspire in my favor? 

The truth of the matter is: I create (and thusly decide) it. Every day and in every single way. I am creating this moment. Right here, right now. 

Further, this exact moment is perfect. As in *Perfection*. 

 

So what is the highest purpose for creation? 

For the longest time I thought art was a way of communication, that it’s about "the other". To remind someone else of something or to transfer a state of being. 

All nonsense. 

The highest form of creation is creation for the sake of creation, created in a completely surrendered state for the Love of Creation itself. 

That’s what Art is. 

There is no need for an invented purpose. There is nobody whom I could communicate something to. It is completely „self“-serving. What serves me is what serves others. What serves others is what serves me. 

Listen to Beethoven. I did so today for the first time (voluntarily). That’s someone creating on the cutting edge of Creation itself. 

 

Here a couple reminders I wrote down for myself: 

• Do or don’t but don’t "try" or "wait". 
• What world do I choose to create today? 
• I'm waiting for the perfect idea. The perfect idea is coming. 
• Practice, hard work, purification - create

Hope you enjoyed! 

 

 

P.S. Extensive studies have concluded that homemade banana bread is the perfect form of sustenance for extended voyages into the psychedelic realm. Just wanted to let you know.