Love

[RickyFitts]

@Marcel I for one would love to read what you wrote down  

[Esilda]

@RickyFitts

SOooooo chaotic in my head right now wondering what my next love entry is going to be on... not sure what to choose!

Same here @Marcel

Edited August 14, 2021 by Esilda

[Esilda]

8 hours ago, Marcel said:

@Esilda

How was your dancing experience yesterday evening?

Opening up about being a woman and discussing this topic got me so excited and turned on yesterday evening that i barely got any sleep at night.

So i finally got up at 4 am this morning after lying awake in bed for 3 hours, went for a walk and wrote down one of my most desired sexual phantasies from my female perspective, written as if i had a female body. I feel so completely free and liberated right now and i truly feel alive again. This is really personal and intimate to me. I would love to share it, but at the same time, i don´t really want to post it in my journal except you would want to read it by any chance, i describe the whole deal in a lot of detail. Well as much detail as i could think of at 4:30 am after not having slept the entire night.

Something just tells me that i need to express and open myself up more, i really hope this does not come across as weird or needy in any way.

DIFFERENT TIME ZONES @Marcel! And it was lovely thank you, there's nothing that both shows my feelings and releases my feelings than when I'm dancing with someone, ballroom dancing with many people just makes everything so obvious there lol.

I've been wondering by the way, you're in such a state of flow don't feel bad if you share your insights on love... I'm feeling... out of sorts at the minute right now that I'd love to be inspired by your enthusiasm of late. 

I feel like tomorrow I'm going to go to my local gardens and have a picnic with a girlfriend if she's free, just take off my shoes and feel the earth beneath my feet while wetting them in the fountain nearby as I dawdle absentmindedly, it really helps me feel everything that's happening inside of me.

Edited August 14, 2021 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

@Marcel Cheers buddy, I'll have a look 

[Esilda]

@Marcel Arrived home now reading your journal  

Oh where I go ballroom dancing is absolutely amazing! We have our own live band, we dress up, its so much fun , its just a great time to have a little bit of champagne with my friends as well afterwards. I mainly stick to Appletiser though rofl, I mentioned before regarding my sensitivity to alcohol. 

It was a bit cloudy so we didn't have a picnic, we just strolled through in the mild chill. I still took off my loafers and put my feet into the fountain with my friend for fun though lol.

Wowza how did u end up with that fear do you feel? I've always had a thing for feet in a bad way myself, sometimes too more so just depending on my mood.

[Esilda]

@Marcel reading evrything here now! 

[Esilda]

@Marcel feel free to add your own pictures as well I will get back to your cmments as soon as I can, loving them!  

 

[Esilda]

how do we tune in better to mother nature, our creator?

how do we tune in better to life happening all around us?

how do we tune in better to ourselves and what is happening inside of us?

how do we tune in better into every living being we come into contact with and what is happening with them outside of ourselves?

how do we tune in better to space, immaterial, material, all of life and how do we tune into all the things that are barriers to our attunement?

why do we do this?

for what courses of action?

what future, if any other than the beauty of this moment, are we trying to create if 'trying' is something at all relevant here?

Sending love to everyone  

--- hoping this is okay by the way @Vzdoh wishing the best 

Edited August 16, 2021 by Esilda

[Esilda]

what is even 'better' here when it comes to the wonders of the present moment?

'Sight' seems higher.

.... love... green

 

Edited August 16, 2021 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

2 hours ago, Esilda said:

what is even 'better' here when it comes to the wonders of the present moment?

'Sight' seems higher.

.... love... green

 

Oh wow, what an amazing pic 

[Esilda]

@Marcel baby love. This journal is on love. Loving the reading but where is the love? My mind is a garden and I want you to fertilise it with your life of love mr!!!!!!  

Just private mssg me stuff outside of love demon sir! 

[Esilda]

Brightening this place up  

[Esilda]

@Marcel Are you okay by the way darl? I am sensing like a really super negative energy, maybe I am just projecting or you triggered me because I have a very sensitive nervous system okay so it frightens me a little when I hear some stories like that is all. Be well okay, let's keep things positive  

Edited August 18, 2021 by Esilda

[Esilda]

@Marcel that energy will hurt you eventually be careful!  Yeah just happy times here please we can talk about other stuff someplace else!  , stay on love in this journal let's stay on love!

My bird, my protector.

This is a story about a magical bird that protects me.

He is strong and warrior like, he has wings that span 20 meters and he is 10 meters tall. He is like an angel that is the protector of Earth and for whatever reason God assigned his duties to me to guide me on my path to higher love. When I am nervous, he calms me down. When I am angry, he stands by me. When I am crying, he lets me lean on me. His name is Cosmic. The bird who can fly around the universe looking for his duty of protection and to guide those he is helping towards a path of love. He helps me understand the energy of the universe, showing me the powers of my own body. No matter what emotion I am experiencing, he is a guide for me to become united with my higher self of love. Let the love he sends to me bring me closer to my calling, let the love I feel from his protective embrace withstand anything life throws at me.

This is Cosmic Love

The love that surrounds the entire universe, with wings that carry us all to the end of time with the sheer intensity of beauty that makes the universe full of joyful love. Vibrant is my heart , ascend my heart will with the greatest of natures beauty.

Edited August 18, 2021 by Esilda

[Esilda]

Argentavis magnificens 

[RickyFitts]

Wow, Esilda, amazing images  Here's one that sprung to mind as I was reading your thread, I don't know why but I figure I'll share it anyway:

[Esilda]

To my future man ,

Strongheaded, brave, creative, independent, innovative, ambitious and loving man. How do I make myself the object of your affections? To what lengths do I have to go to? What part of my soul do I have to open? Do I game you or am I to be completely pure? How do I get you to truly notice me? How do I get you to want to see into me? To be me? 
 

.... Sitting under the moon right now waiting for an answer from the universe.

.... Underneath the stars... Won't you tell me your name?

 

Edited August 20, 2021 by Esilda

[Esilda]

More scenery, my mood of love  

[Esilda]

Waitomo Glowworm Caves next weekend its going to be so lovely!  

Here in New Zealand!

Edited August 22, 2021 by Esilda

[RickyFitts]

Nature, eh? Flippin' 'eck 

Beautiful, Esilda, thanks again for sharing