God triggers my ego

[Ilan]

I get it, god is everything, god incarnate as the most intelligent creature of the world and as the dumbest but here is one thing that my ego self can’t accept, why the hell does god have this tendency of allowing himself as a dumb creature to ruin his smartest incarnation. Why in an incarnation which was too lazy to do any serious work, never had the courage to encounter any suffering would he kill/intoxicate/ruin one incarnation that invests so much in the Self, work his ass to reach understanding and truth, work his ass to become more pure, had the courage to confront himself with tremendous suffering. Why does he allow that? Cause in practice, this Universe has this tendency and this tendency makes me mad 

[Ilan]

(At least in the Universe known by Humans, which means planet earth.. :p) 

I feel a little bit ridiculous..

 

[The0Self]

To know what it’s like to be everything, of which nothing is denied, including the circumstance you mention.