My last thread on the forum. I constantly feel self pity. I feel ashamed of myself. Ashamed that I was born.  I ask myself "why was I born in this world?" I don't like myself. I feel unworthy. My mom told me since the age of 12 that she had undergone an abortion before me and that she didn't want anymore kids. During my teenage years she would frequently argue with me and tell me that I was unwanted and undesirable child. I'm in my 20s now.  She used to constantly tell me how she wished I wasn't born. She used to keep repeating this almost regularly. It started to make feel empty and unwanted. I feel like I'm sick of myself.  I constantly feel like my birth was a huge mistake  I don't know how to get over it.. These feelings are pretty intense and cause me mental breakdowns.