My spiritual struggle in the last 3 days

[Preety_India]

I cried a lot in the last 3 days and I suffered deep spiritual pain for the last 5 years. The pain is indescribable. 

Yet it seems I'm coming  closer to something that has taken a lot of soul searching and a very painfully slow and gruelling task. 

After 3 days of intense emotional and spiritual crisis (I became an emotional wreck) I gained 3 important insights and felt that I was slowly getting closer to something important.

(My articulation is not good, I can see how I go round and round, I apologise for that.)

These insights are -

1. God is EVERYTHING
2. God is LOVE
3. PEACE OF MIND will be found only in God

And other insights were - this life is eternal. We live in eternity. And this eternal life is a struggle for attaining higher consciousness which is a form of God Consciousness. 

 

I wanted to share my insights. Thanks for reading. ?

 

 

Edited July 13, 2021 by Preety_India

[Eternal Unity]

Thank you so much for sharing! Stay strong and keep being aware of insights!

[Preety_India]

@Eternal Unity I'm glad.

 

 

 

[Nahm]

So beautiful and great to hear!  

[Applegarden8]

Peace of mind is only found in God. I resonate with this aswell.

There was a hindu sage who had an ancient book, similar to patanjali's work.

In the beginning of the book it says something along these lines: "...And now yoga."

So we tried everything and yet are unfullfilled, so it is time for a consciousness.

Edited July 14, 2021 by Applegarden8
Edit - that very sage who verbalised it was Patanjali himself.

[Javfly33]

Sorry for that ? hope you are doing better.

Personally, each time I would do a psychedelic in the past ~2 years, almost always I would fucking cry. Especially with 5-Meo-Dmt, this would be every * fucking* time

Until It get to a point I said, "fuck it" , this is nonsense. It came to a point where I realized, that "emotional release" was more stories of the ego in how the ego was maintaining itself.

The ego maintains itself in higher consciousness states by fucking crying like a victim. Duh. 

So it came a point I realized, this is it. Fuck this!

I want truth.

And so I realize I am creating this BS.

You don't need healing, you don't need anything. But you have to realize this personally.

It did take a fucking while to realize it. Ugh. What a fucking blessing I'm creating everything.

[sara373]

@Preety_India

thanks for the insight. My question is if God is life itself? I mean, the universe?

[Thought Art]

@Preety_India

These are great insights. But, it's also important we ground ourselves in secular mental health. Consider speaking to a professional as well. Spirituality is best practiced I think when built of a foundation of a healthy psyche and rational thinking. Of course, we can go through spiritual crises but it's important we use all the tools at our disposal including the advice of trained specialists.

I'ved learned this the hard way that to create a high quality and integral psychology we must really focus on grounding, grounding, grounding. The past 2 years for me I think the combination of spiritual teachings, family issues, global crises and my own immaturity has gotten me in trouble. Hoping others can avoid my mistakes.

Wishing you well.

Edited July 14, 2021 by Thought Art