Lost of motivation

[Gabith]

A month ago I had a good morning routine and discipline.
I would get up, meditate, take a cold shower, do yoga, eat breakfast to gain weight.

For the past month, I feel like I've lost all discipline and motivation, I don't know how to get up at 7:30 anymore, I stay in bed until 10.

I don't do my morning routine anymore because I tell myself it's too late... But I find it very hard to get up straight away when I wake up.

Do you have any good advice or thoughts/questioning that would help me get back on track and keep my discipline?

 

[Gabith]

I'm getting lazy 

[Nahm]

In a way, motivation is like a hamster wheel. Doing activities as a means to the end, just for the result. The mind tends to project the right-now goodness of feeling into a future, mentally placing self-happiness as contingent on the outcome. Inspiration is more feeling & presence oriented, (more received than an orientation really) doing whatever you’re doing for the enjoyment of the experience, not for the outcome or what it produces. Sometimes motivation is a running from, an avoidance. That can get things done, but it burns out. 

Discipline & motivation are great, very useful and employable. It is good to know what you want, and to be aligning with it in all ways. Sometimes a wall is hit, and no doing seems to overcome it. Then there is the discovery of non-doing, as in, same experiences, same disciplines, same routine, or different if desired… just without any self defeating narrative arising in thought. 

Expression, a means of letting go of what is not aligned anymore and serving, can initially be counterintuitive because there is not something for you to do per se. It’s more of an allowing and a letting go than a doing for a reason, other than feeling, presence. 

If mental orientation is directed ‘inward’, as habitual thoughts about yourself, the discord is felt and hinders. If orientation is ‘outward’, as expression of what you want, without mentally projecting better feeling in a future, as an outcome or gain, alignment as the truth, or the creator is felt. The source of that feeling is what inspiration is. In truth there isn’t even “inspiration”. That Goodness is just, actual you. 

In this way the visceral discovery of aspects of the true nature are realized. There is no ‘before’ & ‘after’ in any literal sense, but to communicate, these discoveries might sound like ‘whereas before there were beliefs and thoughts about my intelligence, now I see there is just, intelligence.’ Exactly the same if someone had been focusing on thoughts like ‘my air’, and in letting the thought freely come & go, it just becomes obvious separations were thought, not actual, and there is just ‘the air’. 

One simple way, or example of ‘feeling it’, without the ‘hijacking’ of motive, is to sit first thing in the morning with headphones and music on, without getting up and doing anything quite yet. Just feeling the goodness of inspiration, of feeling in & of itself, arising. Music, being only vibrational, is easily connective.