Praying to God everyday for Freedom from Abuse

[Eph75]

Is it rental prices or buying a place that is more expensive now? Maybe just renting a room or finding someone that needs a roommate? Maybe not a thing in India.. 

Edited July 11, 2021 by Eph75

[Preety_India]

@Eph75 both are very expensive.

 

[Preety_India]

One day I'll be victorious and get out of this mess.

She ruled my life since childhood.

The trauma was pretty intense given that my heart rate would rapidly increase whenever she was around.

 

 

My dad had suffered cardiac failure. He had been put through too much.

I had always told myself that I would never do what he did 

I used to ask my dad - why don't you just divorce her ?

She is a bipolar psycho. 

And when she goes in manic episodes, she turns into a beast and her face and everything Changes and she can really look like some dangerous serial killer. 

Her level of control can look pathological.

It's insane and I go into freeze mode.

Everytime she is not happy, that day is going to be an awful day.

Her voice becomes very deep and intimidating 

Her meanness gets extreme.

I cannot predict what can happen when she is going through a manic episode. She can turn into a devil, brutal and violent.

She gets ginormous stamina in her body during her manic episodes.

She will twist my arm so I can't escape and yank my body in different directions and throw me at the wall.

Although she is shorter than me, her arms are very powerful. My arms are very timid and weak because I was born underweight and I had a host of health issues 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I will say bipolar people just shouldn't have kids.

The disease is too hard on family members and caregivers.