How To Love

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35 minutes ago, Raptorsin7 said:

I've actually made a lot of progress by switching my mindset in meditation towards accepting and loving everything that arises. 

But I still haven't managed to fully accept and experience the bliss and awesomeness from my peak psych trips.

Like last night i managed to accept myself to the point where feelings of disgust came up, and based on my past trips if I can go into the sensation of disgust there is a great relief and release that comes from going deeper and transcending disgust, but I ended up avoiding the sensation and just patting myself on the back for going so deep.

It just seems so simple, so when I can't do it i get frustrated. Like accept what is=happiness. But I still find myself here suffering and not enjoying what is.

Sometimes it helps to turn the "I can't" to an "I won't". Instead of feeling helpless by this "I can't" there might be an "I can, but I won't" and inquire into what feeling is behind that unwillingness to go into the disgust.