Self Actualization Journal

[abrakamowse]

3 hours ago, Kelley White said:

@abrakamowse  The paradox?  Knowing on one level "reality is an illusion" and on the other that the illusion is still "real".  

The problem are the labels @Kelley White . The illusion is not real, we think is real but it is not. That's the problem.

I'm not sure if I will be helpful, but I feel that you are thinking too much Kelley instead of living. Thinking is what doesn't let us enjoy the reality. I am talking about the real reality (hehehe...) and not the illusion.

Stop thinking and go to meditate hehehehe... mindful meditation and self-inquiry and then wait. Observe your thinking but don't attach to it.

 

Sorry If I am getting in something that is not my business.
I just wanted to tell you that.

Edited February 29, 2016 by abrakamowse

[Kelley White]

On 2/29/2016 at 0:18 PM, abrakamowse said:

Stop thinking and go to meditate hehehehe... mindful meditation and self-inquiry and then wait. Observe your thinking but don't attach to it.

@abrakamowse I'm always curious where the balance is?  Have you tried convincing a grocer money is an illusion and attempted to exchange meditation points for apples?    I suspect self inquiry leads in this dimension to the reality of thought is a necessity for survival and evolution on the pragmatic level?

Let's talk about this ego business.  If a person had zero ego, if they were absolutely just sitting and meditating all day every day and they did not work, did not eat, did not ask one question, how well would that work out?  I can choose to not attach to the reality I need to eat...how will that work out?  On one level of reality perhaps not so well, on another I would not consciously care?  I don't know.  I've not died yet.  I have met some folks who have died and returned with assorted tales of the experience but who knows what's real in that equation? 

I forget the title of the video, Leo mentions if a person loses a few fingers from their hand are they different?  I would contend in order to lose fingers one had to suffer a trauma.  Since trauma fundamentally changes a being they would technically be a different being internally and externally.   Why do missing digits have phantom memory/pain?

I haven't gotten through the whole video yet as I have had to deal with the unreality of living today. 

 

[Kelley White]

Journal update:

My first entry was February 5th.   It seems so interesting to me to look back at the highs and lows, the perceived struggles, and then the growth since beginning both in the forum and Leo's Self actualization course.

Concrete steps:

1.  Received notice from my property manager, have most of my home packed and a new home located in Spokane.  This gets me out of a rural area and in a city where I have more speaking and performance opportunities as well as social opportunities.  

2.  Volunteering to work at one of the Caucuses.  (Public social event coming up the end of this month prior to move.)

3.  Met with WA state vocational rehab, found out I can receive a diploma review from one of several colleges here in the state, and perhaps,  in less than a quarter, have my  Bachelors in Psychology which would move me closer towards my goals or creating a non profit from prison families.  I've been concerned about protecting client confidentiality for the population I wish to work with since often these family members are forced to remain silent for fear of their words being used against a family member later in court.  Thus my goals require me to have a bit more training to protect my potential client base.   I'm very excited that finally I will be able to complete my degree; more than likely beginning in the Fall semester.   

4.  Took a selfie and posted it to social media to begin taking steps to get over this  "selfie" anxiety.

5.  Have been doing a journal per my counselor with three positive traits about myself per day.

6.  Have been more focused and consistent with daily meditation and  diet/exercise.

7.  Have made arrangements to get a passport and take training this summer with a vocal/life coach to look at the option of writing songs again, recording, and teaching a specific method which frees and individuals\s authentic voice.

8.  Recognized and been working on some negative and self defeating patterns.

Huge issues now coming to light...

1.  Over committing

2.  Automating social media more

3.  Time management, particularly during a move.

4.  Not beating myself up or feeling the need to explain my personal plans on social media, allowing me to take care of me first and not worry about "other things I think others might think I should be doing. LOL  Yeah that.   Lots of ifs and shoulds in that. LOL

Some steps forward, some steps back, mostly steps forward and thankful I am.   I've learned so much from Leo's videos and from everyone here.    This has really been a positive experience for me.  Thank you so much to everyone I've interacted with.

 

 

[Jollyjake]

@Kelley White I'm also living in Spokane. Shadle area. I'm an energy healer, empath and would love to connect with like minded folks.

Cheers!