Sex Diary

[Roy]

27 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

This song is dope, too. Never heard it before. But this right here tho...this is pure sex:

Then you'll LOVE this remix of it;

It's also no wonder you're getting all these fuck buddies! You are attractive as hell, one good looking human being 

[ivankiss]

@Roy Oh shut up! You're too kind! 

I just signed into a gym yesterday. This is not even my final form. 

Cool remix. Have you heard this one?

I know dubstep is kinda outdated, but man, this hits the spot for me, hard.

My tempo.

[Myioko]

43 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

I know dubstep is kinda outdated, but man, this hits the spot for me, hard.

Nice remix! 

Jumping on the Massive Attack bandwagon, I listened to a tonn of Aurora in 2020 so she introduced me to massive attack/other musicians through song covers

Besides Teardrop I like these ones 

 

[Myioko]

Also nice selfie, the color black suits you really well  

Edited July 26, 2021 by Myioko

[Applegarden8]

7 hours ago, ivankiss said:

Not your average fuckboi 

 

it does djent tho, I agree with @Myioko. :D

Edited July 26, 2021 by Applegarden8

[ivankiss]

Thanks guys! 

Here's another sexy masterpiece for ya'all:

Sometimes I slide away
Silently
I slowly lose myself
Over and over

Take comfort in my skin
Endlessly
Surrender to my will
Forever and ever

I dissolve in trust
I will sing with joy
I will end up dust
I'm in heaven

I stand in golden rays
Radiantly
I burn a fire of love
Over and over

Reflecting endless light
Relentlessly
I have embraced the flame
Forever and ever

I will scream The Word
Jump into the void
I will guide the world
Up to heaven

[ivankiss]

A girl I used to have a massive crush on, 10 years ago or so, reached out to me earlier.

Great vibes. We flirted heavily. Already planning our date.

Life is fucking good, man.

[ivankiss]

J is coming over for a quickie. She's not going to sleep over. 

Perfect timing. I'm horny as fuck today.

I'm getting all this female attention and sex, and it feels great. But secretly, on the inside, I still feel very insecure and unworthy of love.

Good thing no one notices.

[RendHeaven]

11 hours ago, ivankiss said:

But secretly, on the inside, I still feel very insecure and unworthy of love.

Good thing no one notices.

? 

Edited July 27, 2021 by RendHeaven

[ivankiss]

@RendHeaven All is well 

J slept over, after all. She could not resist.

I came 4 times like a true champion. She came god knows how many times.

I'm still kinda horny though..

 

[ivankiss]

The vibe between me and that supermodel blondie is just ridiculous. We are flirting hard. Fucking each-other with our eyes.

Sho does not seem to be avoiding me, at all. She's always waiting to catch me looking in her direction. What a fucking tease.

I know it might sound evil, but man, I hope she dumps her boyfriend. Something tells me I'd tread her much, much better.

[ivankiss]

Apparently, older women like me, too.

A pretty damn hot, classy lady just fucked me with her eyes. Flirting is more subtle on these levels, but still, it was pretty damn obvious that she was attracted to me. She must've been 45+ years old.

Feels good, not gonna lie. 

Maybe I should consider older women, too. It might be a very cool experience. So far, the oldest I've been with was 33 or so. Back when I was 20. It was pretty much a fail though.

A story on its own...

[ivankiss]

I know I have not met you yet. But sometimes it feels like I've already lost you. My truest, one and only love.

I have mistaken someone else's eyes for yours. Someone else's lips. 

I know you're out there, somewhere, gazing at the same moon, the same stars; wondering where I am. 

I'd like to dedicate this beautiful song to you. It's about the pain of loss and separation. Or at least; that's how I interpret it.

Yours, truly. Forever.

Spiralling nights in the void
Weathered coat and a dagger
If I dream back my youth
I can still hear you sing
A voice that will die on a mountain

And I fear
That I've stayed here
Just a little too long

I had to go where you couldn't follow
In my weariness
I still hear you singing in my mind
And all the of fortunes they took away

The shifting earth beneath us
(Nothing to observe)
The clouds at our feet
(Nothing to observe)
The sun was made of a jewel
(Nothing to observe)
When at night it did sleep
Nothing to observe

Cast in a trench of fire
I can see the sky is a ceiling
And when my heart dies down
I am long gone
On the fields of summer's green
Away from fall and famine

In my weariness
I still hear you singing in my mind
(And all the fortunes they took away)

The shifting earth beneath us
(Nothing to observe)
The clouds at our feet
(Nothing to observe)
The sun was made of a jewel
(Nothing to observe)
When at night it did sleep

I'm in every season
The one you have always known
Life did not reward you
So find your way to the river and let go

The shifting earth beneath us
(Nothing to observe)
The clouds at our feet
(Nothing to observe)
The sun was made of a jewel
(Nothing to observe)
When at night it did sleep
Nothing to observe

The shifting earth beneath us
(Nothing to observe)
The clouds at our feet
(Nothing to observe)
The sun was made of a jewel
(Nothing to observe)
When at night it did sleep

[ivankiss]

I tried to project your image onto another, and delude myself into believing you're by my side... It kinda worked for a little while, but deep down I always knew it wasn't you.

None could come even close to the reality of who you truly are. It was all a cheap knock-off. But I loved them as I love you... sorta.

I trust you understand my passion for women. You know it's all just child's play. And If there is a man by your side; I only hope he's treating you with respect and showing you at least a quarter of the love I've got for you. Blessed be his name.

Only I know how to love you truly.

Unconditionally.

Only I am your true match.

We split up in heaven. I know it was an agreement. We're both on a mission. We've got stuff to do here. Hope you're doing well, my love. I'm sure I'd be infinitely proud of you - if only I could see you for a moment.

I made peace with not meeting you in this life-time, ever. Something tells me, we're both alone in this game. I can live with that.

But if our lips are indeed destined to touch, on this journey... man... I cannot even begin imagining all the beauty. It seems to good to be true.

...Here's another masterpiece for you, in the name of this silly, illusory distance between us two. Remember: We are one in heart; one in mind. Always and forever.

Keep rockin', girl! You are one of a kind. All the stars are shining just for you.

Cold windowpane
A car upturned in the rain
Wait on in vain
Don't try to bear the blame
Deal with the pain
Dust down your wings again

You need to clear away
All the jetsam in your brain
And face the truth
Well love can make amends
But while the darkness always ends
You're still alone
So drive home

Pause without end
A moment in time suspends
How could she leave?
Release all your guilt and breathe
Give up your pain
Hold up your head again

You need to clear away
All the jetsam in your brain
And face the truth
Well love can make amends
While the darkness always ends
You're still alone
So drive home

Drive home
Drive home

[Hulia]

@ivankiss Why is she cleaning toilets? Why does he wear a military uniform? And the ridiculous moustache and beard?

Do you want to know, how I imagined this? Well when I was a child, I imagined He comes for me, when I am hanging out washing. Since we lived in an appartment on the 6th floor and were hanging out washing inside of our flat on the opened doors of the cupboards, I prefered to imagine the house, where my mother lived as a child, and where the washing was hanged out outside - it made more sense. The house was at the end of a long straight street, so you could see a guest 5 minutes before He arrived. And I imagined, how I saw him at the other end of the street, throwing damned washing away, since it didn´t matter any more, whether it gets dry or not. Back then we didn´t have automatic washing machine including the whole cycle, so that I imagined that He would spare me a lot of hard work by taking me away. But nowdays I enjoy hanging out the washings outside, when it´s hot and the washing is fresh and the birds are singing. But I cannot stop thinking, He might show up any time I am hanging out the washings. 

@Zeroguy don´t try try to re-enact this. I don´t wanna see you, and you see my washings

 

Edited July 27, 2021 by Hulia

[ivankiss]

@Hulia Does it matter, really?

Both songs are potent enough to completely devastate and kill a man.

Beautiful story, too. Thanks for sharing. I don't remember imagining how exactly would we meet... But I was searching for her since I can remember.

Only recently have I been spat out of that spinning wheel of madness.

[Hulia]

13 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

I don't remember imagining how exactly would we meet..

No, no, I didn´t imagine how we meet either. This part was too impossible. Impossible to meet someone who... idk 

What I imagined waht someone whom I already knew. 

Couldn´t J be Her?

[ivankiss]

@Hulia Oh, I see. My bad.

J... is not her. Definitely.

But they do share quite a few qualities.

[ivankiss]

Well I wish there was someone
Well I wish there was someone
To love me

When I used to be someone
And I knew there was someone
That loved me

As I sit here frozen alone
Even ghosts get tired and go home
As they crawl back under the stones

And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it, but I never can
it's just saturated loneliness

Does the silence get lonely?
Does the silence get lonely?
Who knows?
I've been hearing it tell me
I've been hearing it tell me
Go home

Cause the freaks are playing tonight
They packed up and turned out the lights

And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it, but I never can
It's just saturated loneliness

And the bath waters cold
And this life's getting old

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
And I wish I could feel it
Abduct it, corrupt it
But I never can
I never can
Never Can
Never Can
Never Can

[ivankiss]

I'm an animal
I'm a victim
I'm the answer to your prayers
I'm a witness
On the witchhunt
I'm the monster up the stairs
I'm ghost that's
In the mirror
I'm everything that you fear
I'm the riptide
I'm the soul-shock
I'm the voice that's in your head

I've seen it all
Still can't taste it
Smashed to the wall
That brought me to my knees
I've done it all
Fucked up
Wasted
Still in my blood
But now inside unseen

I'm the hunted
I'm a predator
I'm the answer to the riddle
I'm the upbeat
I'm the headfuck
I'm the way yarn flips to the middle
I'm the player
I'm naive
I'm the one who's not addicted
I'm the logic
To the fuck up
I'm the broken one who fixed it

I'm just a child
With the tears in it's eyes
I am holding this gift
That is broken
What do I have left now

I've seen it all
I've done it all
I've seen it all
I've done it all