Sex Diary

[ivankiss]

I can still smell her perfume on my pillow..

It's so sweet, so yummy...

Ahh, what a girl... what a life.

[ivankiss]

OMG OMG OMG!

I just bumped into that girl I mentioned a few pages ago... The one with those sexy, cat eyes...

We spoke for a solid 10 minutes. Flirted a bit, too. She was hot as fuck. Wearing a black mini-skirt and a small, tight, white shirt.

I can tell she's a wild animal in bed. Her eyes are pure fire. And she complimented mine, too. She has black hair and is very petite. So, so, so my type.

Unless she has a boyfriend or something, she's mine in a few weeks, or less.

[Hulia]

21 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Unless she has a boyfriend or something, she's mine in a few weeks, or less.

Extend it to few years or more. It would strengthen you patience and self-control even more than Leo´s 180 sec.

Edited July 13, 2021 by Hulia

[ivankiss]

@Hulia  Thanks for the support.

If I really gave it my all; she'd be in my bed, tonight. But I'm not there yet. Not on the top of my game, really. But close. Very close.

[ivankiss]

...and of course; our eyes locked in again, just before I was leaving my workplace. God, I will fuck this girl so damn good... She has no idea what she's in for.

I asked for her name earlier, but I already forgot... idiot.

Man... I fucking love this city. There are so many hot, beautiful, young women here it's ridiculous. 

I can tell they're checking me out, often. I love catching them staring. It's so cute when they quickly look away. And it's so fucking hot when they don't, and our eyes lock into a moment of eternity.

I love life.

[Surfingthewave]

@ivankiss Interesting account of your sexual exploits. 

1) Does this girl know you are posting about sex with her on a public forum? 

2)  Do you ever ask the women what they want in bed? 

3) How about allowing the woman to dominate you. There's a thought.  As this is a self development forum thought I'd give you some feedback. 

4) As you're posting publicly please refrain from using the term 'sluts' and perhaps have more awareness of how you are  describing women. 

5) You also mentioned being aggressive and the woman seeming off and uncomfortable. Just raising this because you need to ask for her consent first before BDSM. 

 

Edited July 14, 2021 by Surfingthewave

[Applegarden8]

58 minutes ago, Surfingthewave said:

@ivankiss Interesting account of your sexual exploits. 

1) Does this girl know you are posting about sex with her on a public forum? 

2)  Do you ever ask the women what they want in bed? 

3) How about allowing the woman to dominate you. There's a thought.  As this is a self development forum thought I'd give you some feedback. 

4) As you're posting publicly please refrain from using the term 'sluts' and perhaps have more awareness of how you are  describing women. 

 

How are these sexual exploits, may I ask? Where is her identity shown or ivankiss identity for that matter? How is this exploitation?

The bottom three are none of our business.

[Surfingthewave]

@Applegarden8 Why post publicly then? Just write in a private journal. 

There's a lot about these posts that highlight concerns which I've raised. 

This is just soft porn, there's no self actualisation going on. 

I look forward to hearing feedback from other females on here as I think @ivankiss could benefit from it. 

Edited July 14, 2021 by Surfingthewave

[Applegarden8]

6 minutes ago, Surfingthewave said:

@Applegarden8 Why post publicly then? Just write in a private journal. 

There's a lot about these posts that highlight concerns which I've raised. 

How about you acctually answer my questions regarding why is it bad to post his sexual experiences with women that remain anonymous and his toughts about them publicly so you could therefore answer to your question as to why he should post publicly? Is this not reasonable? And that is besides calling out him on his "sexual exploits", as judgmental as it sounds.

[Surfingthewave]

@Applegarden8 I never said it was bad, just the wrong place. 

He could sell to a publisher instead. 50 shades of... (insert name here). 

There's a lot of people journalling some reallly tough stuff. This is just pure ego. 

Women no longer want to be sexually dominated all the time. It's 2021. Get over it. 

Edited July 14, 2021 by Surfingthewave

[Applegarden8]

19 minutes ago, Surfingthewave said:

@Applegarden8 I never said it was bad, just the wrong place. 

Listen, I am not going to expose you, i am not a youtuber, BUT i will say this.

You know what I meant with bad. Similar meanings to bad would include (at least in my mind) - inappropriate (to post publicly for example), and the term "sexual exploits".

So I will never get the answer to that I guess.

[Peter Miklis]

1 hour ago, Surfingthewave said:

Women no longer want to be sexually dominated all the time. It's 2021. Get over it. 

Lol. Ok buddy, whatever floats your boat?

[Zeroguy]

4 hours ago, Surfingthewave said:

@ivankiss Interesting account of your sexual exploits. 

 

Is this guy serious?

Oh spiritual folks.I forgot.So long and goodbye.

[ivankiss]

Thanks for expressing your worries @Surfingthewave

First of all; massive projections and misinterpretations of my stories.

Clearly; you're triggered, heavily. I'd look into why is that. What's up with all the judgement and close-mindedness? It is indeed 2021. Sex is not something to be ashamed of. 

I am gaining massive clarity and understanding of my sexuality. How I'm wired. What turns me on. How I am able to seduce, to please, to love. So yeah... There is massive self-actualization going on here. It's just not the kind you're used to seeing. 

Furthermore; I discovered how passionate I am about writing erotic stuff. I think I could get real good at it. Maybe even earn some money with it. I would not become aware of that; had I not started this diary.

Why is this public and online - you ask?

Well... why is anything? Why do you post here about anything, at all? Why do people share any experience of theirs here?

To get feedback, obviously. To learn. To grow. To become a better version of themselves. To gain more awareness. Also; self-expression. Duh. Freedom.

Sex is not an exception. It's an area that requires a lot of attention. Unless you want to keep hiding in the shadows and deny that aspect of your being. There's nothing worse than losing touch with your sexuality. I've been there. I felt dead as dead can be.

Besides all that, I am practicing and demonstrating massive transparency here. Honesty. Vulnerability. Etc.

How many of you would be cool with going into deep detail about your sex-life, publicly?

How many of you would have the skill to articulate and express it this eloquently?

Very few - I'd say. If any.

Don't you think that indicates a certain level of self-transcendence? I could not write this clearly and this openly about my experiences, if I was all caught up in the conditioning of my mind. I'd die of shame if I was to think like the common masses. - Which you seem to be the voice of, at this moment.

Not to mention all the stuff that those who do not get laid often (or at all) can extract and learn from here. The benefits are endless. But it's hard to see them over your own bullshit.

J knows I post about sex here. She does not know I go this deep into detail, but so what? I'm not giving full names here, or any other information of these girls. That being said; I'm sure she'd get all hot if she was to read it and jump on me immediately.

Not all people live in caves.

 

Edited July 14, 2021 by ivankiss

[Hulia]

@ivankiss Now it occured to me that after reading you last report, where you played chess (I personally found it weird and not compatible with sex), I has a dream which I forgot of course. But now I recalled an episode.

Somebody saying: "It´s a very interesting detail that a girl plays chess, it makes the whole thing hotter". He meant a girl from a movie "Gambet queen". And I thought for myself: "Well it might be...", and then "Wait! It´s not a detail! The whole plot is built around chess!"

[ivankiss]

@Hulia Awesome.

I love chess. And seeing her being all into it was indeed very hot. So much fun.

There's actually a lot of stuff in my stories that have little to nothing to do with sex. 

It's called 'life'.

[ivankiss]

@Surfingthewave Another thing - just to soothe your mind, or anyone else's who's freaking out...

Those 'little sluts' who are into BDSM, love being called 'little sluts'. It's a fucking role-play, obviously.

I'm not insulting or harming anyone here. 

[Etherial Cat]

I find your journal quite informative.

It's your journey after all, and the perspective given is great food for thought. It let me rather pensive on how you as a man perceive sex or experiment desire.

4 hours ago, ivankiss said:

@Surfingthewave

Those 'little sluts' who are into BDSM, love being called 'little sluts'. It's a fucking role-play, obviously.

I'm not insulting or harming anyone here. 

I think calling women sluts and them enjoying it come from the fact that a woman owning her sexual energy is frowned upon by patriarchy. And that's because it is a source of great power, indirectly. The average guy is obsessed with sex and if a woman is too good at it, it's the end of his self-control. 

Being called a slut is the contained version of it, when the men holds the power but acknowledge her sexuality and the fact that she enjoys it. In a non-threatening way for her.

 

[ivankiss]

30 minutes ago, Etherial Cat said:

I find your journal quite informative.

It's your journey after all, and the perspective given is great food for thought. It let me rather pensive on how you as a man perceive sex or experiment desire.

Cool. Thanks.

Just don't forget that all this is extremely personal/subjective. Other men might not think and feel the same way, at all.

Even I will not stay at this stage when it comes to sex. Pretty sure of that.

31 minutes ago, Etherial Cat said:

I find your journal quite informative.

It's your journey after all, and the perspective given is great food for thought. It let me rather pensive on how you as a man perceive sex or experiment desire.

I think calling women sluts and them enjoying it come from the fact that a woman owning her sexual energy is frowned upon by patriarchy. And that's because it is a source of great power, indirectly. The average guy is obsessed with sex and if a woman is too good at it, it's the end of his self-control. 

Being called a slut is the contained version of it, when the men holds the power but acknowledge her sexuality and the fact that she enjoys it. In a non-threatening way for her.

 

Interesting. I did not call all that many girls in my life 'sluts'. And whever I do; it's always with a girl I'm deeply connected with. I doubt I could do it with a girl I barely know.

The word was always spoken out of love, too. Yes, there is a certain level of dominance implied, but that does not mean I'm being cruel, abusive or disrespectful towards the girl. It's pretty much tha same as calling her 'my little angel'... I love my little sluts.

Regarding sexual power... I have a question for you.

Do you think it's men or women who abuse their sexual power more? Weaponize it and use it as a tool for manipulation?

I have some experience.. That's why I ask.

[ivankiss]

A girl I had sex with last summer stopped by my workplace earlier. Everything seemed cool. No weirdness or anything.

I hope to see that happen with all of my 'fuck buddies' in the future. I really believe any form of nastiness or awkwardness can be avoided in these types of situations.

Just, again... Honesty, communication, boundaries, respect, awareness...

Then it's all doable.