Sex Diary

[Hulia]

Just now, ivankiss said:

@Hulia You think you know a lot of stuff, don't you?

Why not? ?

[ivankiss]

@Hulia Because you don't. You're lost in lalaland. In your fantasy.

And now you're dragging me into that madness, too. Just like my ex.

Thinking you know something with dead certainty about someone else, is massive delusion.

You only know stuff about yourself. And even that is questionable. 

Everything else is just guesswork.

Hallucination.

[Applegarden8]

9 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

And now you're dragging me into that madness, too. Just like my ex.

Thinking you know something with dead certainty about someone else, is massive delusion.

You only know stuff about yourself. And even that is questionable. 

This is the essence of projection, so that the individual doesn't have the burden of feeling to self-reflect. Know a lot of people like that, the entire conservative agenda for example.

[Hulia]

9 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

And now you're dragging me into that madness, too. Just like my ex.

Why am I dragging you into madness? If you are so certain that I am lost in fantasy. Just don´t consider me.

[ivankiss]

@Hulia that's hard to do when you're also a decent, respectful, loving person.

Besides; you're kinda fun.

 

[Hulia]

5 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

that's hard to do when you're also a decent, respectful, loving person

Decent? Respectful? Loving? ? Did you read your texts???  Loving person with handcuffs. 

[ivankiss]

@Hulia It's called 'role-play', dummy 

[Zeroguy]

1 hour ago, ivankiss said:

@Hulia It's called 'role-play', dummy 

We will have a talk don't worry. 

Interested in her explanation. 

This time I will actually listen. 

Edited July 9, 2021 by Zeroguy

[ivankiss]

Reasons to be in a relationship with J:

- She's a sweetheart. Kind, humble, generous, compassionate, loving. All extremely high qualities. Our core - values match very good.

- She's smart, responsible, mature and hard-working. She got her shit handled. 

- She's petite. And very hot. My type.

- She's not too loud or aggressive in expression. Kinda holding back a bit. I like it.

- Sex is bomb. And it could potentially get much, much better. Communication is bomb. The vibe is amazing. All very important things.

Reasons not to be in a relationship with J:

- Huge gap in terms of spirituality. She has not gone through a full-blown awakening. I'm pretty sure of that. God-realization is even further down the line. 

- She's really hot. But not as hot as I think I can score. I simply know this girl is not 'it'. May come off as dick-headish... but it's really just a matter of me being clear on my preferences. And sticking to them.

- She is not aligned with her passion/vision/dream/mission. She does have a lot of passion flowing through her veins, but she's not in touch with her deepest desires - I'd say. She works a dead-end job, and that's it. Nothing too ambitious going on outside of that.

I'm sure I could show her the path, and even walk her through it... guide her. It could be a beautiful experience, for both of us. But then again, why would I do that?

I don't want another project.

I want someone who's on the same wavelength. The same level. Someone who can mirror me well. Follow my reflection. See things from the same mountaintop.

And that shit is very, very rare. But I trust I will recognize it when I see it.

J, is just not 'her'.

Also; she's kinda conservative and sticks to tradition. A bit too much of a contry-side girl - for my taste. Way too attached to her family, home, etc. A girl like that cannot travel the world with me and make heaven on earth. She's just not equipped for that kind of a journey.

Edited July 9, 2021 by ivankiss

[Hulia]

20 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Also; she's kinda conservative and sticks to tradition.

Conservative country-girl???????? Do you read your own texts? ?

[ivankiss]

@Hulia

Where you see judgment, I see close observation and careful examination.

[Hulia]

1 minute ago, ivankiss said:

@Hulia

Where you see judgment, I see close observation and careful examination.

Screen them all do kraja života, you sex god  ?

[ivankiss]

@Hulia AHAHAHA  ❤

[Gianna]

3 hours ago, ivankiss said:

Reasons to be in a relationship with J:

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Reasons not to be in a relationship with J:

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Hahaha, I'm dead. What happened to no relationship!? We're seeing some contemplation on it now guys. I love it. That's life! 

 This thread is so much fun. I can't wait to follow the rest of your story. 


 

[ivankiss]

@Gianna I'd be stupid not to consider and weigh out things.

I have my reasons for doing and not doing stuff. All the puzzle-pieces fit perfectly 

Or so it seems 

[Gianna]

56 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

@Gianna I'd be stupid not to consider and weigh out things.

I have my reasons for doing and not doing stuff. All the puzzle-pieces fit perfectly 

Or so it seems 

No, I love it! I love your unconditional open mind. 

[ivankiss]

@Gianna Love you too ❤ stay tuned!

 

[ivankiss]

I wasn't there for you
I wasn't there for you

I know weather's gonna be fine
But I can't see you 'cross the streamline
My love waits for me in daytime
But I can't see you through the snow blind

But I wasn't there for you
You are gone (I wasn't there for you)
Goodbyes are long
Goodbye (I wasn't there for you)
Goodbye
I wasn't there for goodbye
I wasn't there for goodbye

Well, I know time reveals in hindsight
I can hand wrestle with the stormy night
Because your love lasts a lifetime
But I can see you through the snow blind

But I wasn't there for you
You are gone (I wasn't there for you)
Goodbyes are long
You are gone (I wasn't there for you)
Goodbyes are long (I wasn't there for you)
Goodbye

I wasn't there for you
I wasn't there
I wasn't there for you
I wasn't there for you
You are gone (I wasn't there for you)
Goodbyes are long
Goodbye
Goodbye

[ivankiss]

... And another one, dedicated to my lovely ex:

Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy
Psycho, groupie, coke
Makes you high, makes you hide
Makes you really want to go, stop
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy
Psycho, groupie, coke
Makes you high, makes you hide
Do you really want to think and stop?
Stop your eyes from flowing out

So you want the world to stop?
Stop in and watch your body fully drop
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy

So you want to see the show?
You really don't have to be a ho
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy

Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy
Psycho, groupie, coke
Makes you high, makes you hide
Makes you really want to go, stop
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy
Psycho, groupie, coke
Makes you high, makes you hide
Do you really want to think and stop?
Stop your eyes from flowing out

So you want the world to stop?
Rushing to watch your spirit fully drop
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy
So you want to see the show?
You really don't have to be a ho
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy

[ivankiss]

Tonight is the night. J is coming over. We're both free tomorrow, so I assume it's going to be a very long and wild night.

I'm already getting hard.