So I Saw My True Self A.k.a Awareness

[NutellaTC]

it wasn't pleasant  today while meditating for some weird reason I started twisting and my abdominal muscles started contracting against my will like if I was possessed or some weird shit then lol then it happened I saw it clearly I started crying and yelling in an unstoppable way I was just watching while my sense of self and body started fighting and yelling noooo noooo while hitting the walls and then it would it would stop , thoughts started to pop up my sense of self started to attach to them and it was all clear then the yelling and hitting would start again and that happened for like 1 hour or 2 , while identifying myself with awareness everything would be peaceful and beautiful while the ego was yelling in negation until Things calmed down.

 

Im sorry if it got confusing with all the I, selfs , and ego is just that I can't put it in words . 

Edited November 14, 2016 by NutellaTC

[Alex K]

@NutellaTC Nice, congrats! How much have you done to achieve it?

Edited November 14, 2016 by Alex K

[Extreme Z7]

Your true self is simply empty presence. Its an empty space that holds all experience but not in a 3-D materialistic way. It's just simply there but can't be found.

Edited November 14, 2016 by Extreme Z7

[NutellaTC]

@Alex K nothing I just sat for 2 hours and did nothing my mind eventually calmed down and it happened. This whole thing is like a dog chasing his own tail .