Insight and wondering if i should pursue a relationship at this moment

[Shiva99]

I've been contemplating a lot on the attraction and longing i have for a married female coworker, and now i finally understand why. I'm attracted to her because i have problems meeting women, and i don't know any girls outside of my work environment. This has to be the reason why i'm attracted to her, enjoying her attention etc. She's unavailable, and this covers my insecurities that i also now am aware of. I have some insecurities that make me feel unworthy of a woman that is available for me, and that can give me the love i deep down long for. They are holding me back from approaching woman that are single. Feels good to finally see this, but it hurts like hell. Especially because now i can see how i'm fooling myself around all the time, literally being happy getting attention from a woman who is married.

Besides all of this, i'm wondering how i would know if i'm ready for a relationship to begin with. I feel like i want to work on my insecurities etc. some more before dating again, but at the same time i crave love, sex and intimacy a lot. I'm always numbing this pain by masturbating too much, which obviously doesn't work long term :(. 

 

[RickyFitts]

Maybe one way to work on your insecurities would be to start datiing again, romantic relationships can be a great way to become conscious of certain issues within yourself that might have gone under the radar otherwise.

Utlimately, though, only you can really know if you're ready to date again. If it's your heart's desire, I say go for it 

[universe]

Great insights! Now keep going...

[Loving Radiance]

@Shiva99  Good work! Being radically honest with yourself is a great start for transformation.

I'd suggest to get with someone who specializes in repressed desire. Someone understanding the subconscious mind and identity and how to work on that.