Pulsation in my skull

[Cathal]

I have this kind of energy just throbbing in my head, the moment I intend to meditate and focus on my breathe my awareness is immediatly pulled towards this pulsating neutral kind of sensation that feels like thick liquid swarming around in my skull. I feel like.. I actually cannot MEDITATE because it's like this thing

traps my awareness or something. I'm currently dealing with my dissociation from my body/emotional body it feels like when I try to go into my body it gets trapped in this weird fucking energy. Sometimes i'll get out, but it's almost like a gamble that I get into a meditative state. It throbs on where you guys call your 3rd eye, if I put my awareness on it I can move it to my crown. But I cannot move it downwards.

[JosephKnecht]

13 minutes ago, catcat69123 said:

It throbs on where you guys call your 3rd eye, if I put my awareness on it I can move it to my crown.

I am experiencing the same thing for a while... 

For me, the pulsation is more random and doesn't always happen during meditation.

I don't have answers on the cause or remedy. 

[WelcometoReality]

@catcat69123 it's quite common to have energy releasing in different areas of the body, especially from the chakra points during meditation. If energy is releasing from your third eye focus ur attention there and let it release. Let the body guide you and don't try to achieve certain states. 

[Zigzag Idiot]

I’ve experienced this off and on for about 15 years. What I’ve experienced fits well with what AH Almaas has named the Diamond guidance in his teaching. Or rather it’s a symptom of when this Diamond Guidance comes online. This is not a phenomena related with only his teaching.  In the second excerpt I post there will be some elaboration. I’ll have a remark after the excerpts.

Feeling the Presence of the Diamond Guidance

Usually the Diamond Guidance operates as a presence in the center of the forehead. When it arises in support of discrimination and understanding, we become aware of an expansion as space opens up in the forehead. With that expansion comes a sense of peacefulness; the Black aspect at the center of the forehead opens and we feel stillness and spaciousness. When the Diamond Guidance arises in this peacefulness, we feel a delicate presence, a pulsating energy that possesses a sense of clarity and transparency, an intelligence, an illumination. This delicate, pulsing, breathing presence appears as understanding, as insight, as intuition. As the forehead opens, we feel the Diamond Guidance as a tingling, an energetic throbbing – but very soft, very delicate, very subtle. If we are not attuned, we might dismiss it as just a physical twitch. Or if there is a lot of blockage, as is often the case in the early stages of the development, the diamond might feel hard. Due to the blockage it can’t get through, so it feels almost like a rock. But if we are relaxed and open, we feel it as a softness, a delicacy. 

Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 226

The Angel of Revelation

In other traditions, the Diamond Guidance is sometimes called the angel of revelation, the holy spirit that brings the word or message from the source. It is the angel that guides us to Beingness that is our ground, our nature, our source. It is the true friend, the total friend, because the Guidance’s only concern is for you as a soul to go back to your source, to be who and what you can be, with total acceptance, total support, total guidance, total kindness. The soul needs to place herself in the right attitude for this kind of blessing to come. You have to do the work of correctly orienting yourself. Basically this means harmonizing your consciousness with the mode of presence and operation of the Guidance. This is what we are exploring when we discuss inquiry – the right orientation, the right posture, the ways of being and functioning that will invite the Guidance. 

Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 223

taken from https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/diamond-guidance and there are more as well.

In  @Nahm’s Actuality of Being YouTube video he names something which seems very similar to this which he calls sensational guidance. I’m curious if he’s noticed any phenomena like this?

With  myself it was first noticed in the late two thousands when I was doing inquiry and reading Almaas’s Diamond mind series. It came and went over the years and manifested  in ways similar to what he describes. It came on in a stronger way after I had been doing Centeing Prayer for about a year in 2017- 2018. I noticed that it started appearing consistently coinciding with whenever I achieved some measure of non-conceptual awareness which is more or less the aim of Centering prayer.

[caspex]

Same has happened to me for a year or two. Whenever I go deep enough, I start to feel this pulsating beat at around 300 bpm or something beat for about 10 beats or something, then go off, then come again and go off. However this happens to me inside my head rather than my forehead. It usually comes about when I feel like my brain was a rock and I finally broke it after hitting it with hammer(observation) for a long time.

[Nahm]

@Zigzag Idiot

Sounds similar, but my connotation of ‘sensational guidance’ is really more along the lines of discovering what I’d called ‘feelings’ or ‘my feelings’ had been infinite intelligence all along. That-there-is-sensation is always ‘guiding us’ via how our thoughts, perspectives, ideas, etc, feel.  

[Zigzag Idiot]

@Nahm Thanks 

I’m really interested in getting a better understanding of your use of the term ‘sensational guidance’ and what it entails.
The trouble with words,,, If you know what I mean. For instance, using words to define and describe Love.  This is similar to what I feel in making distinctions between ‘sensational guidance’ and ‘diamond guidance’. It’s not that I’m trying to insist that they are the same thing but rather when I look at them in comparison, I see and feel more similarities than differences.

As in the following excerpt -

Diamond Guidance Discriminates the Immediacy of What We are Experiencing

This brings us back to the discerning and knowing capacity of presence itself—the higher intellect, essential nous, or what we call “diamond guidance”—which reveals that freedom has other meanings and other horizons. The thing that we need to understand about this discerning capacity is that it discriminates not only our knowledge and the content of our mind but also our direct experience. It discriminates the immediacy of what we are experiencing by discerning, seeing, and revealing what is there. It can extract the meaning and the implications of the experience, which in any experience of true nature are countless and varied. When I say “higher intellect” or “divine mind,” many people misunderstand and consider these to be mental faculties. But the heart is vital to this kind of creative discrimination. The functioning of this capacity actually happens through the unity of mind and heart because without love, there would be no compassion or sensitivity to the mind’s discernment. The creative discrimination of presence is activated by the participation of the heart. This discrimination arises according to true, deep, existential need and only when we have the right orientation—a loving desire to know the truth.

Runaway Realization, pg. 232

As it turns out. While composing this response, the condition I referred to in my first reply to the Op has appeared. A delicate pulse in the region of the prefrontal lobes. I feel my next step should be to take in more and sit with the material you provide at your website. 
This is REALLY interesting stuff! 
Thanks again,,,,

[Cathal]

it sometimes breathes, like feels like its opening up breathing wider and wider. doesn't really dissipate or anything, just breathes.. almost like a very gentle heartbeat in your head that expands and contracts, has nothing to do with your own flow of breathing either

[Nahm]

@Zigzag Idiot

Not that anything from the book sounds off… but it could be taken as there is achievement / attainment required regarding the diamond terminology. Frank Yang comes to mind. he uses a term, “the natty” (or naddy). I think it’s just a slang reference to ‘natural’, or what I use the term ‘true nature’ to point to. But, you could see how someone could mistake this as not the most fundamental-what-already-is, and interpret it as “I have to reach / achieve / accomplish / attain “The Natty”. The reference to Frank is just an analogous example, in response to what I think you’re inquiring, which is how my approach or sharing differs from what you shared from ’Runaway Realization’ above. (Frank seems right in imo, and I like the term ;the natty ). I am always orienting and reorienting again & again to drop all but the most simplest of language. That’s the only difference that I notice. 

My hope is that folks realize ‘oh wow, what I’ve been just calling “feeling or my feelings” has been guidance this whole time!”, because I can see, or have a vision, that this is betterment for one and all.  I like to be a part of that so to speak, vs trying to coin terms and reinvent or personalize anything. Hopefully that makes sense (cause in a way I’m not even saying anything).

In regard to the pulsing sensation… imo… the best way to go is to give the entire matter to source.  To let any labels upon it go, and just relax, feel into the body naturally, in an effortless normal sense. 

So… “sensational guidance” is just a pointing. Not something I would say is a “Realization” (capitol R style)… just ‘oh, ok, feeling, emotions, guidance, cool’.