Mistaking Awareness As Feeling

[sgn]

Can this be correct that we actually don't FEEL the body unless there is for example, pressure, pain, sensations etc.
And yet, without this we sense it exists because of the awareness?
Well obviously the awareness is what makes feelings etc to be experienced in the first place.
But I'm not talking about that.

I have been "looking" for the awareness a lot the last months, and the awareness that is sensed I actually thought was just inner feeling.
And was thinking I shouldn't focus on that.

If I take the inside of my arm for example...
I thought: "yes I feel it exists, but that just the feeling of the flesh. The actual arm.
But what I've come to suspect I don't actually FEEL it unless there is, like I wrote before, pressure, pain, sensations,  etc.
So what I thought was feeling is actually awareness.

And I've been able to deepen this more and more and rest in it. And notice some reactions in the brain. Earlier today I was lying in the bed becoming more aware of it. And suddenly a big flash of some sort. Like for a second there was only awareness and nothing else. Followed by intense fear and then I snapped out of it. I must be doing something right. lol

[Prabhaker]

35 minutes ago, Happiness said:

I have been "looking" for the awareness

You are awareness !

[sgn]

9 minutes ago, Prabhaker said:

You are awareness !

Yes, I know.  Awareness looking for itself then? Awareness aware of itself. How should I put it. Just more words.

[Prabhaker]

1 minute ago, Happiness said:

Awareness looking for itself then?

Whatever you are looking can't be awareness. Neither you feel it nor you can sense it. It is the awareness which witnesses the feelings and sensations.

[sgn]

2 minutes ago, Prabhaker said:

Whatever you are looking can't be awareness. Neither you feel it nor you can sense it. It is the awareness which witnesses the feelings and sensations.

Ok, I maybe should choose my words more careful. Awareness observing itself? Awareness watching itself? Awareness observing itself?
Awareness aware of awareness? Awareness resting as awareness? How would you put it?

[Prabhaker]

7 minutes ago, Happiness said:

How would you put it?

One wrong question will lead to another wrong question.

Awareness is absolutely devoid of any subjectivity or objectivity. Awareness is total – total subjectivity and total objectivity as a single phenomenon.

It is difficult to jump from ordinary, unconscious action into awareness. It is possible but arduous, so a step in between is helpful. If one begins by witnessing conscious activity, then the jump becomes easier – the jump into awareness without any conscious object, without any conscious subject, without any conscious activity at all. 
     This doesn't mean that awareness isn't consciousness; it is pure consciousness, but no one is conscious about it. 

     There is a further difference between consciousness and awareness. 
     Consciousness is a quality of your mind, but it is not your total mind. Your mind can be both conscious and unconscious; but when you transcend your mind, there is no unconsciousness and no corresponding consciousness. There is awareness.
     Awareness means that the total mind has become aware. Now the old mind is not there but there is the quality of being conscious. Awareness has become the totality; the mind itself is now part of the awareness. We cannot say that the mind is aware; we can only meaningfully say that the mind is conscious. 
     Awareness means transcendence of the mind, so it is not the mind that is aware. It is only through transcendence of the mind, through going beyond mind, that awareness becomes possible. 
     Consciousness is a quality of the mind, awareness is the transcendence.

[sgn]

@Prabhaker The awareness can become aware of the awareness that is HERE, in this place (me).
And if there's no body here, awareness is still there? but it can't be aware of itself because it uses this brain or whatever as a tool for that? And if the whole body is that awareness, or that awareness which it consists of, that field that can become self aware. It can't if there's no body existing here.
Well a functioning brain at least. So that's why I took an arm for example. Because that awareness that is there is included in this field?
The awareness that's here can only become aware of the awareness that's make up this body.
I don't know ,it might be some misconception etc and difficulty to expressing this.
I haven't read all the books and all that and can articulate this well. But it's not intellectual anyway.
Only thing that matters I feel like is that it recognizes itself or however one would say it.
And it seems it/I have. Why else would I have all these experiences from it. Guess it's just a question of how deep the seeing has to be. 
What do you say?

[Prabhaker]

28 minutes ago, Happiness said:

but it can't be aware of itself

Can you see your own eyes ?

[sgn]

@Prabhaker

[Azrael]

@Happiness, if one has to put it in words I may borrow a metaphor from Rupert Spira on this one:

Awareness is the screen on which everything you sense and everything that there is appears.

So, every time you look for it you are actually kidding yourself. Because the very knowing that you have of every sense perception is the thing you are looking for. It's you. So relax. Of course you'll try to make it something mystical or great because that's what we think it is, when it simply is the most intimate thing you ever had and that there is:

The knowing of what is.

Edited November 12, 2016 by Azrael

[Prabhaker]

5 hours ago, Azrael said:

Awareness is the screen on which everything you sense and everything that there is appears.

It implies that you and screen are separate ?

[Azrael]

1 minute ago, Prabhaker said:

It implies that you and screen are separate ?

When a screen is lit up buy a movie, can you still make out the screen? So no, it implies that the knowing of things is the only thing you can ever experience. Recognizing that makes you realize your own nature.

[Prabhaker]

9 minutes ago, Azrael said:

Recognizing that makes you realize your own nature.

I doubt Rupert Spira had realization of real self/ soul/ awareness. May be he was speaking this language so that he can be understood by others.