Evrything happens by itself. Freaking out

[Nos7algiK]

6 minutes ago, Giulio Bevilacqua said:

@Mason Riggle You can not bring attention to the present moment, how can you DO that ? It is already there. If ones tries to be present he will inevitably create a tension within him self. 

That's pretty much the Wu Wei you mentioned earlier. Even though it may seem a bit shocking or dare I say damning to your ego. Eventually, you will integrate this insight enough to sit pleasantly with it. Then the damnation turns into liberation. "Destruction breeds creation." Even if both of those concepts are overall illusionary and one in the same.

[Loving Radiance]

1 minute ago, Nos7algiK said:

That's pretty much the Wu Wei you mentioned earlier. Even though it may seem a bit shocking or dare I say damning to your ego. Eventually, you will integrate this insight enough to sit pleasantly with it. Then the damnation turns into liberation. "Destruction breeds creation." Even if both of those concepts are overall illusionary and one in the same.

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[Giulio Bevilacqua]

@Loving Radiance I do not know, maybe another thought pattern

[Loving Radiance]

@Giulio Bevilacqua I'd investigate that

[kinesin]

@Giulio Bevilacqua  I know what you're going through, I've been there myself.  You'll be alright.  It might seem scary right now, things feel very different, you're not sure how you can reintegrate back into life again with such a perspective... all of your fears right now are perfectly normal.  I promise you though, that this fear will pass.  Your feelings of uncertainty will pass and you'll feel safe and peaceful once again.  Just give it time.  You're realising now that things simply happen without input from 'you', that 'you' can sit back and watch yourself type out a thread like this, that your arms move as if by their own accord - so where does the fear fit in to all that?  It's just another process like all the rest.  Just another thing that comes and goes, only fear feels more 'real' because it's so firmly rooted within us.  That's an illusion though, the fear that the fear won't ever end is just another part of the fear.  It will end.

When going through a difficult time, all you have to do is let time pass.  Keep feeding yourself, keep drinking water, keep going to bed at a reasonable hour, keep doing all the mundane day to day things to keep your body in order and wait for the difficult time to pass.  Sometimes it can take a while, but it will pass, nothing lasts forever.  Just take a breath and let it happen, you're going to come out of this wiser than you were before.

[Endangered-EGO]

@Giulio Bevilacqua Don't worry man, most of us go through that. First time is most terrifying until you realise that you're not gonna act different or do stupid things. Your natural self is perfect. The fear is there because you feel like you lose control.

 

1. You never had control, now you simply get it.

 

2. You're not going to do anything stupid or dangerous, because fear is there to protect you. If you feel ready for it, do the little thought experiment. "Why don't you insult one of your friends, if there's nobody controling, what keeps you from doing that?" Because your natural empathy that's always present doesn't want to hurt anyone. There doesn't need to be someone controling it. What keeps you from hurting yourself? FEAR! You're afraid because you don't trust yourself, but the fact that fear is present prooves the absurdity of needing to be afraid of "it" because it's only reason to exist is to protect you. So once you freak out, just feel into the fact that your higher self protects you with fear. It should cancel itself out.

 

 

Moreover, ego will come back, probably tommorow, and then you'll integrate the experience, and then it will go back again, this time with no fear at all. Maybe just mild confusion, and then ego comes back again and again.

 

I loved reading your post because it reminded me of my first wu wei terror haha. You're going to want wu wei back once you lose it. And once it comes back you're going to be in heaven (on earth) literally. There's no possibility of fear in heaven, because everything is simply perfect. Then ego comes back, but with knowledge.