She was all dolled up little blonde. Meeting me in a park. She had an amazing dress and I fell in love. I was so nervous I couldn't kiss her.  We had a lot of fun discussions but I forgot to keep it male to female. I feel like I messed up. The hurt is so much that I wished I didn't start pickup/dating women.  How could I have kissed her. She had a bag between us. I couldn't get close. My brain just wasn't working.  Do you think I messed it up or am I overreacting?