Life purpose, feminine/masculine, and nihilism

[John Paul]

I will first acknowledge that my focussing on other people's paths while I am still in the very early stage of developing my life purpose is mostly a distraction. But my life purpose involves providing spiral education, life coaching etc. (indirectly or directly). 

My question is do feminine types of people have a completely different "path" or "structure to their life purposes"? I'm sorry that I haven't thought of the wording for this question better. If no one understands the question I will come and try again. @Leo Gura how can I make distinctions between a man being nihilistic or being a more feminine type (so maybe having a life purpose that I can't see or that they wouldn't be able to communicate)?

[Leo Gura]

I don't think it makes much difference.

A woman's LP will tend to revolve more about people, whereas a man's tends to revolve more about things and ideas.

This is why many women make good teachers, nurses, therapists, social workers, HR, etc. Their higher empathy makes them well suited to working directly with people and building social bonds.

These are loose generalizations. You must find what is most suitable for you regardless of general trends.

I don't understand why you associate being nihilistic with being a man. Have you seen my video on nihilism?

[John Paul]

I've watched a bit less than half I think.

I'm asking because some people will say that chasing material things blah blah. Or other ways to discredit LP with spiritual crap for why they don't have to build a life dedicated to ending suffering of others. I was wondering if this had somehow to do with being a feminine type and I was being ignorant. Or if I was on to the truth and this rhetoric is just full of shit.

[Leo Gura]

LP is a relative thing. It's really just about living with passion. Your only other option is to live without passion and direction.

Don't let nondual people poo-poo LP. It's a construction but a very useful and important one.

Finish watching the whole video. You missed the most important part.

[John Paul]

I watched it. Thank you for your work.

What this question is actually about is a specific event in which someone who appeared to be "friends" used some sort of short-term black magic, short-term as in I don't think with the intention to have a cult or something so organized but just for the power of seeing if they could manipulate someone into a different emotional state/bring me back to a more lost and confused lesser nihilism(?), and that's it but maybe try to do it again in the future and that's where I get angry and so I am cutting this person out. In the moment I could feel this person planting a seed of negativity and repeat it and I felt scared (talk of evil spirit experiences). Also when I started challenging them with the truth (I learned now I need to pick my battles more wisely. More importantly though I've deconstructed the concept of "friend".) then they were triggered and revealed to me as power-hungry, insecure (and not willing to be vulnerable about it), etc. I watched the full cult vid part one and then finished the nihilism video. The cult part one video felt more relevant but to a very minor degree. I even question if maybe a friend I know is trying to expose me to small amounts of darkness to "make me stronger and more tolerant of it" but I can't take that chance and don't think they will accept me setting a hard boundary for no darkness around me and I'm not even willing right now because I have to sift through this emotion of grieving for all the manipulation including cult-yness and false gurus etc. because I never really realized how wide-spread that stuff could be and on minor, minor scales. MANIPULATION is realized. I still take responsibility that I'm a bullshitter too and need to do more work. But this dark moment threw me off more. Pray that I use it as a learning experience and am stronger and have clearer vision and never do this to anyone intentionally or unintentionally and I pray I don't ever start a cult and that cult crap just stays out of my life in general. 

Also just dealing with the fact that red and purple are more than just alive and in American but that they can be hidden beneath other things and not look like my idea of a tribe or conquer/gangbanger.  And that red could just lie and say it's intelligent, it could just pretend to be green/yellow/turquoise and infiltrate green groups and other color groups and be PARASITES. They don't have to be these big cult leaders. They could just do minimal manipulation just to drift by and enjoy nihilism while surviving(?) Do lazy, unambitious (not wanting to start a cult per say) "devils" exist? I'm sure they do. Tell me I'm not crazy please. And yes I know I'm a devil too but I'm just shocked by the idea that I can be manipulated. Any advice/experiences anyone? @Leo Gura? I can't believe someone can study things how a yellow person would but with the intention (which means cognition/actual stage?) of red? Integrating Red now just seems more daunting... I see the do it right now as a good one and having a fearless warrior spirit as a great ones and that's about it.. Also I could see the danger of AI MARKETING now and that it is studying systems but with an orange intention. And one more possible insight is that Red isn't trying to convince you to be red- they only think about power in themselves so much they couldn't even think of changing your color (could it?) they just want to destroy for exploitation others and their construction and conquer the world. Any advice/experiences y'all? 

[John Paul]

Also I need a way to be aware of manipulations existing while at the same time not believing that most of human interaction is another manipulating me. I need help believing in myself that I can do this because the challenge has just appeared and old trust issues have resurfaced. Any advice on balancing these thoughts of everyone's an ego who manipulates or a "sociopath" (I still don't understand what this is!!!) and everyone has loving intention whatever. Please help me god.

[John Paul]

I need to be able to trust that god's intentions are always good and yet not be suckered into anything that's not working toward my LP which will be aligned with Truth and Love (together). (Is this it?) Also I know that completing all of my own needs for myself is foundational and I'm working on saving money/started reading think and grow rich etc.