Extreme Eruption of Energy during Meditation ???

[BlurryBoi]

It happened during a mindfulness meditation,

I was Letting Go more and more, i started to feel Sexual Arousal in my pelvic floor, in my belly and in my breath, i kept letting go and..

 

ALL OF A SUDDEN this Energy Exploaded/Erupted SO FREAKING HARD my heart & breath went absolutely through the roof (it felt like if i didnt slow it down i was gonna pass out)

My body started to feel reAlly intense Fear (but it felt so good tho)

I was Literally jaw-droped, my head to the sky, and it felt like this Continuous Flow of Energy getting bigger and bigger and going out Through my Throat and mouth. 

 

 

I'm not sure how long it lasted, my guess is for about a big minute.

It left me in a state of Peace and Full of energy (thoughts started to arise and i opened my eyes).

Few hours later i'm back as "normal" in my everyday ego state of mind.

 

 

It was an Awesome experience, but it left me wondering... WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK WAS THAT ??

Is that some type of energy awakening that is going to disturb the body for a while..?

[BlurryBoi]

Additional infos :

• I'm a 19yo man

• I'm quite new to this, around 60hours of meditations (meditating everyday since the start of 2021)

• The day before i experienced a little bit of awakening about mindfulness of existence, nearly lost my ego, found it real hard to fall asleep this night haha (it was like Consciousness cannot be tired)

 • I feel more tension in the back of the neck, but might be irrelevant

Edited May 30, 2021 by BlurryBoi

[Anahata]

Kundalini awakening.

[BlurryBoi]

@Anahata damn, accidentally ?

I was doing some half-assed meditation while listening to Leo's video "What is Truth" ._.

[BipolarGrowth]

45 minutes ago, BlurryBoi said:

@Anahata damn, accidentally ?

I was doing some half-assed meditation while listening to Leo's video "What is Truth" ._.

You can have kundalini awakenings from no practice at all. Listening to Leo’s videos and meditating isn’t much of an accidental situation. You are lining yourself up for exactly this kind of stuff. 

[BlurryBoi]

@BipolarGrowth alrighty then. I'll be learning about this for the next few days 

[BipolarGrowth]

11 minutes ago, BlurryBoi said:

@BipolarGrowth alrighty then. I'll be learning about this for the next few days 

If you have any questions, feel free to ask here or you can send me a PM. Plenty of us have had stuff like this happen and can explain some things if you’re curious how this works. 

[BlurryBoi]

@BipolarGrowth thanks man, i'll gladly ask some questions

 

• It didn't go to the crown chakra, does that mean it is an incomplete kundalini awakening ? Does it matter ?

• Is there some Specific things to do, to deal with insomnia ? (other than the universals no screens, wake up & bed time, food time...)

• Should i slow down my meditation practice for a few days ? I want to ramp it up, but could it backfire on me ? (not ready for all the ego-death shit, especially if it happens without my consent, like while doing the dishes) 

Edited May 30, 2021 by BlurryBoi

[Anahata]

Just now, BlurryBoi said:

@Anahata damn, accidentally ?

I was doing some half-assed meditation while listening to Leo's video "What is Truth" ._.

You are Love. Kundalini awakening is Love taking you on a ride. You are both the driver and the journey. The journey is the destination. You are the source of it all.

Keep going 

Edited May 30, 2021 by Anahata

[BipolarGrowth]

6 hours ago, BlurryBoi said:

@BipolarGrowth thanks man, i'll gladly ask some questions

 

• It didn't go to the crown chakra, does that mean it is an incomplete kundalini awakening ? Does it matter ?

This sounds like one of your first experiences with kundalini. It sounds like honestly more of an intense kundalini in some “lower chakra” or more primal energies. This is a good place to start. If you had strong crown chakra activity this early on, you might become quite unstable, but it’s different for everyone. 
 

In my experience, kundalini and similar energy systems are way more nuanced, individualized, and complex than any one explanatory model covers. There very well might not be a “complete” kundalini awakening. What limits would that have? Do you really think there’s a stopping point with this stuff? Maybe there is, but my intuition and experience has me thinking differently. 

• Is there some Specific things to do, to deal with insomnia ? (other than the universals no screens, wake up & bed time, food time...)

If this insomnia becomes intense and consistent, you probably should see a doctor. Try lower-tier treatments first such as melatonin or possibly adding exercise at an appropriate time. This energy might become a bit too much at times. If you get less sleep, it can get more intense. 
 

At one point I had to start taking ambien to keep my sleep normal. This helped a lot with lessening disruptive kundalini symptoms, but some people have some bad reactions to sleeping pills like this. 

• Should i slow down my meditation practice for a few days ? I want to ramp it up, but could it backfire on me ? (not ready for all the ego-death shit, especially if it happens without my consent, like while doing the dishes) 

If you’re not even ready for ego death, you really need to slow down. Up there you’re asking about kundalini energy up to the crown chakra like it’s something you expected and were ready for. Your crown chakra can fuck your sense of reality a lot harder than a lot of ego death experiences.
 

You probably have some natural spiritual gifts like me. We experience such energies a lot easier than most people. You probably have a lot of karma (specific life conditions) in your favor for developing a lot spiritually in this lifetime. Once you get much deeper into this than where you’re at now, it’s going to become hard to avoid. Make sure you’re ready to start confronting some serious existential questions and shadows if you try to increase your meditation or try anything stronger. Sometimes quick development is a disadvantage in the periods when you’re struggling to hang on and make sense of everything. 

 

Make sure to keep developing a solid foundation of spiritual/philosophical understanding as you do consciousness work. It will help to remind you where you are and that others have had these things happen to them too. 

[BlurryBoi]

@BipolarGrowth once again, thank you for your help ?