Can't recognise myself

[karkaore]

So strange.. Don't know how to describe it. Just can't recognise myself. Bodily sensations feel odd, almost alien. Thought patterns like soup. Any movement the body makes feel strange. Everything feels strange. Fog.

[Grateful Dead]

Could be de-realization / depersonalization.

Did something trigger it? How and when did it start?

[Dodo]

4 hours ago, karkaore said:

So strange.. Don't know how to describe it. Just can't recognise myself. Bodily sensations feel odd, almost alien. Thought patterns like soup. Any movement the body makes feel strange. Everything feels strange. Fog.

There are some strong energies working right now. Make sure to cultivate the spirits of love, truth and peace. Be gentle with yourself and enjoy the small things. 

[karkaore]

2 hours ago, acidgoofy said:

Did something trigger it? How and when did it start?

There was no one particular trigger. I sort of happened to slide into it over time. One book in particular had a huge impact. Leo's videos, contemplation. All the usual stuff. Had maybe around 40trips in the last 3 years or so.

Can't say I enjoy this.. gets real tense at times.

[karkaore]

2 hours ago, Dodo said:

There are some strong energies working right now. Make sure to cultivate the spirits of love, truth and peace. Be gentle with yourself and enjoy the small things. 

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[karkaore]

2 hours ago, acidgoofy said:

Could be de-realization / depersonalization.

Thank you for this. I fit the description almost perfectly.

Way out?

[Shin]

36 minutes ago, karkaore said:

There was no one particular trigger. I sort of happened to slide into it over time. One book in particular had a huge impact. Leo's videos, contemplation. All the usual stuff. Had maybe around 40trips in the last 3 years or so.

Can't say I enjoy this.. gets real tense at times.

Intense how ?

[karkaore]

Just now, Shin said:

Intense how ?

In a form of something like anxiety..? panic would fit the description to some extent too.

[Human Mint]

How does exercise or dancing feel like? Does something feels ok? 

[karkaore]

4 hours ago, Human Mint said:

How does exercise or dancing feel like? Does something feels ok?

Am committed to exercise, although it doesn't really affect this. Not as far as I am aware.

This state is not linear. It comes and goes in periods of weeks/months or something close to that.

Yes, on good days many things are enjoyable. Music, simply taking a shower.. man, the things that come to me in the shower.

Music is genius. I get so immersed in the sound it freaks me out, but it's also pleasurable.

The mere intensity of all this is what causing the ego to freak out and start panicking. And I am not particularly doing any practices pretty much for 8months or so. 

[Anahata]

@karkaore  I think you should start making art and dance more.

[Guest EmptyVase]

Everything which has to do with the 5 senses is grounding. Treating and stimulating these senses in a healthy way might help. As it already was said, moving your body, listening to music, dancing. But also cooking and enjoying some nice food, stretching, being close to nature, smelling the flowers, creative work. Really mindfully perceiving everything and taking it all in. Maybe this will help you to drop the thoughts about yourself and inspire you to create something amazing. ??

[Grateful Dead]

10 hours ago, karkaore said:

Thank you for this. I fit the description almost perfectly.

Way out?

Normally it's caused by lots of stress or a traumatic event, so in your case I would slow down with psychedelics and spirituality.

Try to ground yourself like @EmptyVase suggested. Learn to identify the symptoms and listen to your emotions, maybe start a journal to find some clarity.

It really depends on how strong your symptoms are, if it's a weak case, usually after a short time it will fade away. But if you have strong symptoms over longer periods, you should seek professional help to deal with it.

[karkaore]

Thank you guys.