Nihilism is scary because of the regret and fear of a wasted life

[lmfao]

So I've been looking at my negative thoughts and emotions regarding the existence of my life. Thoughts which I stick by "life is meaningless and I'm just going to die anyway". 

Life is meaningless and I am just going to die anyway (2 things there but they fuse). But in trying to look at what my negative feelings and emotions are regarding this, I find a couple of things.

 

If life has no "literal meaning", what that means is that life and experiences can only be self referential in their value. They can reference nothing else. In other words, the life you've lived and the present moment experience you're having is all there is. So you're afraid of realising you've wasted your life and that you'll die one day. 

Confronting nihilism means confronting your denial and distraction mechanisms. There's obviously the denial of death due to fear of death. The fact that we'll die one day makes it so that we don't want to waste our lives being miserable or live a life we regret.

But I live such a life and want to distract myself from that. And we often lead such miserable lives, but don't want to acknowledge it. Or when we do realise it, it overwhelms us in an existential crisis like this one. 

 

It's easy to end up going with the flow of what people around you or society ends up expecting of you in regards to your lifestyles and aspirations, and so you end up just doing it without thinking much. But that makes you unhappy, but you're afraid of realising or accepting that fact.

And when you're going with the flow like this, you deliberately don't think very much about certain things, and you do everything you can to keep yourself distracted. 

Or worse, you're often aware of how you're wasting your life going with the flow of cultural delusion, but you keep doing it anyway. Hence that meme about "intelligent" people being more depressed and in existential crisis. 

 

With confronting nihilism/death, you see two things. You see the "cost" you've already paid in squandering your life and opportunity, regrets about the past. You also fear the future and the rest of it being wasted if you keep going on this trajectory. 

Edited May 26, 2021 by lmfao

[OctagonOctopus]

You are still giving your past expirences negative meaning. All expirence has beauty in it. All of it is perfect manifestations of Infinity. 

You won't die, you are the Infinite Dream machine. Enjoy the being that you are now.

Your regrets become beautiful lessons when you understand them with love. 

[Thought Art]

Did you finish Leo's video on true Nihilism? 

[lmfao]

5 hours ago, OctagonOctopus said:

You are still giving your past expirences negative meaning. All expirence has beauty in it. All of it is perfect manifestations of Infinity. 

You won't die, you are the Infinite Dream machine. Enjoy the being that you are now.

Your regrets become beautiful lessons when you understand them with love. 

I've perhaps been recently starting to admit that coming from a place of love in regards to anything in life is a lot better. Suffer enough and that happens to you by force I suppose "haha ackshally, you should probably address that belief of yours that suffering benefits anyone or build character, it's a belief system of misery and maya ?" (Ofc that's all true though , the romanticism of suffering becomes suffering....)

I greatly fear dying, I want to live forever. But that's fine, everything is all good.  

1 hour ago, Thought Art said:

Did you finish Leo's video on true Nihilism? 

Nah I haven't watched it yet but I might soon 

Edited May 26, 2021 by lmfao