Crossroads - Difficult Decisions in Life

[One Day]

My background, might be good to read since I'm new:

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This video really changed it all for me:

Thank you Leo for this video, It allowed me to develop this vision for my life:

 

I want to be rich because of luxury, freedom and survival value, and so that I can give a lot to the poor and misplaced.

I want to give money to my family and friends so they can live good and reach their goals.

I want to become extremely good at music and have my music change lives and creativity.

I don't want to hate myself anymore. I want to love myself.

I want to travel and explore the world.

I want to explore consciousness with psychedelics and astral projection, maybe other occult things.

I want deep understanding of the world, life and reality.

I want to be very fit and strong, and be able to do physical-spiritual things like wim hof.

I want to create a musical empire.

I want to have my own video game company.

I want to create mystical street art for my city

I want to live a self actualized life and travel up the Spiral, integrating the healthiest parts of each stage.

I want to heal from my traumas and become healthy in every aspect. To just have a healthy sexuality.

I want to heal from my addictions.

I want to fuck hot girls, egoic shit with friends of course, at least now im still young.

I want to find out the Truth, although I don't want to do Mahasamadhi.

I want to basically have the best life possible for me to create.

These are almost all quite noble goals.

However, there is one thing that I want to do which has turned out to be quite the ethical dilemma for me.

Financial options have come to light for me, which can make me a lot of money. I will be able to quit my job which only pays me 1300 a month, and I will be able to finally move out of my parents house (rent is literally unpayable here), to only focus on music, the financial option, and personal and spiritual development. Right now that would be my dream.

This financial option can make me rich, and I would be able to invest a whole lot of money into my music business. Right now I am afraid to not be accepted by the music industry or have a very hard time in it and only getting a small position. That even if I would have all the skills and products at a top notch level it would still be like winning the lottery if I don't have the capital to invest in it first.
I would be able to live a financially free life, already providing for my family and friends without having to have succeeded in music first, which is always a tricky and unsure business. I am also afraid to be socially rejected by the music industry purely because of my traumas, almost every interaction with people i look up to is just fucking mental suffering.

The caveat is that this financial option does not provide any value to the opposing party whatsoever. the opposing party is a big corporation.

One one hand I want to fully go for it and take every opportunity to live my best life and reach my highest goals. On the other hand I value work ethic and providing value and trusting to universe to eventually give you what you want after patience, faith and hard work. This is the fork on which I stand.

I want to actualize my life purpose and live my best life, and I have a opportunity to actualize it, however this opportunity fits in less with the high consciousness life, making me doubt it. But I am realistically worried that I will not be able to actualize my dreams without it, plus I want to seize every opportunity that the universe gives me as long as regular people are not negatively affected.

Thanks for letting me air it all out. feel free to share your thoughts.

Edited May 15, 2021 by One Day

[supremeyingyang]

What is the financial option?

[One Day]

@supremeyingyang That is not related to the standpoint of my question. Consider my question abstract, as in outlined above.

[kinesin]

@One Day  I believe it is related, as you seem to be alluding to something like a moral question of whether it's appropriate for you to take advantage of the opportunity or not.  Is it cryptocurrency?  You aren't considering putting your savings into a shitcoin are you?

[One Day]

@kinesin believe me bro, this is not a question of some shitcoin/mlm/ponzi that I've been fooled into. That is not what this question is about.

Yes, this is about the moral question of whether taking advantage of the system is possible in a conscious ambitious life. In my case the top/elite of the kapitalist system would be taken advantage of.

[kinesin]

@One Day  The morality of the decision depends entirely on the specifics of the action you'll be taking.  If you won't tell us the action, we can't provide any appropriate advice.

I respect that you're reluctant to go into detail here, so instead I'll make a suggestion so that you can approach a conclusion yourself.  For the next week, spend a solid 30 minutes each day writing (in your own private document) whatever thoughts you have about the action you're considering.  Make the case for it, make the case against it, write about your motivations for doing it, write about the consequences.  Exploratory writing is arguably the most powerful tool a person has when it comes to developing insight, and if you do that for 7 days at the end you'll have something resembling the backbone of a detailed 10-page essay exploring every angle of the question.  Once that's done, you'll understand what to do.