Tackling The Problem Of Inertia

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One thing that became apparent during my depression and first relationship was that I have a pretty big problem with inertia. I'll explain what I mean: I find it difficult to act out what I have in my head, especially when I have to switch from the current activity to a new one. This manifests itself in either not being able to do what is necessary at that moment in time, such as household stuff, but it can also make me unable to switch from an activity I dislike doing to something I like to do. And lastly, I can find it difficult to be in the mood for something I know I like to do, such as singing. Singing calms me down massively, but to get myself to move towards that activity is very mentally challenging. It makes me question whether I actually like the things I like, which in return make it harder to get myself to do them.

 

Has anyone had any experience with this or knows how to deal with it most effectively?

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1 hour ago, NTOgen said:

It simply goes to show you that you're not calling the shots, and your ideas about what you should be doing or what's necessary or what you like and don't like etc., are pretty much irrelevant. You don't get to decide.

Is the sense that I sometimes am in control of myself an illusion then? When I put together a plan and work it out, like picking up medicine from the drug store, which I did earlier, is that not me being in control?

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@NTOgen This is where most people would say that there is a lack of control and then they'd start preaching about enhancing self-control or self-discipline. What you're saying is very different. Control is a pretty abstract concept now that I think about it.

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@NTOgen So where do I go from there? Deconstruct all concepts and accept what is?

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@NTOgen I'd say the reason is that I think I have internal blockages that prevent me from being happy and functioning well. An example would be that I don't do creative work because I'm just unable to not be depressed when I can't think of anything or the result isn't good enough, which can all be traced back to childhoodd. I feel that blockage. So I reckon that getting rid of as much as possible would help me be okay.