Sucks that I even decided to come to this place( CLOSED JOURNAL )

[Preety_India]

Vent journal. 

 

Edited May 4, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Sick and tired of this place. Just putting my heart out. Because it's wearing me down 

I don't want any show of support. 

But I  don't deserve hate either. 

And now what do I see?

Is all the social gamers in this section boycotting me?????

It's sickening and evil. 

Bullying. 

Cornering and isolating me. 

Who doesn't understand all this stupid social games 

I have no qualms. I say it how I feel. 

Closed journal 

 

Don't need your stupid critical comments. 

Hate me so much then leave Me the fuck alone. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I am the most hated person on this forum and my only crime is that I'm myself.  Go look in the mirror before pointing a finger at me. 

 

No need to give me attention if I am not asking for it. Go give it to yourself who is so  starved. 

I  AM MYSELF. And if you don't like me  then click ignore. Stop your hate. I don't need it. I'm tired of it. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I used to be in a much happier mood on this forum 2 years ago when I used to not talk to anybody here. Now look at my mood. 

 

sick of everything. 

 

[Preety_India]

Sometimes I feel like I should just laugh it all off. 

Like what sort of distinguished people would act in this manner. 

Wouldn't distinguished people just keep to themselves?

 

 

[Preety_India]

Even if this is a temporary problem I face on this forum, I'm brave enough to speak about it. 

And even if this is a problem, it only means that identifying it is just the first step. 

Vent as much as you want. 

It's like sitting in a psychologist's chair.. Nothing to worry. 

Remember remember. 

NEVER EVER STOP EXPRESSING WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU FEEL. IF YOU EVER HIDE YOUR FEELINGS, IT'S A DISSERVICE YOU DO TO YOURSELF. YOUR INNER SELF IS BEGGING TO BE EXPRESSED. DON'T PUT A BAND AID ON IT, SCREAM AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS IF YOU NEED TO, IF THERE IS SOMETHING BOTHERING YOU, LET IT BE KNOWN. 

HIDING YOUR FEELINGS DOES NOTHING BUT HURT YOUR SOUL. 

 

[Preety_India]

Once you recognize this problem, the next step is to solve it. 

 

Remove it from its root.. 

If it's hurting your emotional psyche, it has absolutely no place in your world. 

 

Remember the word compatibility 

 

This is only and only your own responsibility. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

One way is to distract yourself with cool happy and interesting stuff. 

There are so many things in this world created by beautiful people. Follow their trail. 

Keep your focus on positive things that help you improve. 

Focusing on the negative for the time being for the purposes of venting is all fine, but understand that this shouldn't be your life story. It's silly if it does. 

God made you so strong not to be taken down by gutter rats with empty minds and heartless souls 

 

Who you kidding?

You're made for much better things in this world 

Carve that path for yourself. Believe in empowerment. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Read stuff that intellectually stimulates you, deeply moves you, stirs your soul, ignites your mind, soothes your heart. 

There is so much beauty out there and you're stuck in internet hate.. Just not fair. 

 

Immerse yourself in wonderful stimulating stuff. 

The time that you spend feeling hurt by how strangers treat you online can be spent in stuff that stimulates your intellectual property. 

Find things that make you happy and happiness will find you. 

Replace the curtains on your window. Remove these dirty curtains made by people who badmouth you and replace them with bright shiny ones and breathe in fresh air. Keep a track of your mood. 

If your mood is bad, work on it to make it better. 

Let's say I had a husband now. Would I want him to stay upset because I'm upset? I'll need to be happy for him. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Always apply this motto whenever people online are being rude to you. 

This is an instant fix. 

"I allow contentment, closure, fulfillment and satisfaction to flow back to me. "

This sentence made a huge difference. Notice how when people attack you or are passive aggressive wi...

 

[Preety_India]

The other stuff you need to remember every time you get upset by what people say to you, first off immediately ground yourself. 

Remember that the devil/Satan can only distract you but not block your path. Your path is still free. 

 

This is the biggest lesson. 

So walk straight on your path, no matter what people say or believe.  Keep moving. Keep going. 

Keep going as far as you can because the time is short. 

Look forward. Don't look at your detractors. Looking at them for too long is distraction. Notice them once and know that they exist and then simply keep moving ahead. Time will bring good days and happy rewards. 

Keep moving and don't ever look back. 

That should be your spirit in a hateful world, that's what Aaaak says. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Remember you aren't here to socialize. You are here to work on yourself  

So the people here shouldn't be on your social circuit. Big mistake if they are. 

Have a selection criteria of who you're going to talk to 

Raise your standards 

 

Don't talk to argumentative people. Always avoid those types.. 

Talk to pleasant people and people who are not cold, but friendly. People ready for beautiful conversations.. 

 

[Preety_India]

now listen up 

 

this is what Leo has to say about y'all. 

and I say - truer words were never spoken. 

If you guys invested as much passion and time into contemplation and your life purpose as you do into gossiping maybe you'd get somewhere.

 

 

 

got it?????????

 

 

[Preety_India]

It's literally impossible for me to be anywhere else online other than this place.

So that option doesnt work.

 I wish this place didn't have that social media feel. It's annoying that it does.

Appreciate that. Yea, I think I just need to limit my time on here; I already limit my time on social
media just generally, and this place counts too.
It doesn't really make me happy.


I have No social media whatsoever and neither am I looking for one.

So limiting my time here is not an option either. Where would I go?

If I leave this place, it would be synonymous to leaving the internet altogether because this is the only place I click on my browser.

The other place on the internet where I generally hang out is Youtube but I cannot be watching youtube all day every day. 

This place has become increasingly destructive in recent period and not good for my health,   I expected much better mannerisms here, but all I see are repeated versions of other places I've previously been to. 

My last option is to stick around this place a bit longer and simply limit my interactions here as much as possible. 


Of course, I'm deeply unhappy here. It doesn't stimulate growth. The only good aspects are technical.  

 

[Preety_India]

 

Got my journal back. 

 

It's literally impossible for me to be anywhere else online other than this place.

So that option doesnt work.

 I wish this place didn't have that social media feel. It's annoying that it does.

Appreciate that. Yea, I think I just need to limit my time on here; I already limit my time on social
media just generally, and this place counts too.
It doesn't really make me happy.


I have No social media whatsoever and neither am I looking for one.

So limiting my time here is not an option either. Where would I go?

If I leave this place, it would be synonymous to leaving the internet altogether because this is the only place I click on my browser.

The other place on the internet where I generally hang out is Youtube but I cannot be watching youtube all day every day. 

This place has become increasingly destructive in recent period and not good for my health,   I expected much better mannerisms here, but all I see are repeated versions of other places I've previously been to. 

My last option is to stick around this place a bit longer and simply limit my interactions here as much as possible. 


Of course, I'm deeply unhappy here. It doesn't stimulate growth. The only good aspects are technical.  

 

 

[Preety_India]

One thing I need to do is log out of this site whenever I'm done writing here. 

Also use timestamps whenever I'm here and working on a journal. 

 

Although logging in and logging out is like a big task for me, also because I had technical issues with that in the past, but I might need to do it on a fairly regular basis to cut down and limit my time and keep it mentally safe and healthy for myself 

Social media is toxic, period. And this place has begun to gradually morph into a social media sort of thing, this wasn't the case in 2018 when I first came here.  The section didn't have many people talking to each other. There was hardly anyone and most people were busy with their own stuff. 

These days I see behaviors that are just not healthy enough to keep me here. Too much gossip 

All it takes is a few bad apples and this whole place turns into a circus. 

I have with a lot of effort deliberately tried to avoid it all but my own naivete means that I unintentionally became a part of it. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I have been quite salty in the past 10 days.. 

I believe that people always expect me to be on my best behaviour and that in a way reduces my humanness. 

I cannot be your sweet girl caricature. 

I'm aware that a lot of people like me here. 

Yet, understand that I also have to deal with a lot of shit both on and off the forum that you people don't have to, not as much as on my scale. 

So please understand that me being salty is also a necessary part of my growth, even if you might think that I'm adding to the drama here, I'm actually not. 

I had a big fight here on April 25,  and that got me really emotionally jarred for the first time in 3 years. 

I hadn't had such a strong emotional reaction, in about a year of being here, as far back in time as I can remember. 

So there's that. 

I have to respect my personhood, who I am. 

I'm not here for a social image. I'm here for growth. And my growth is very chaotic, as you already see. 

 

I can be a good person to you if you're being a good person to me without all your shadiness, I don't want to deal with that. I like being "just" and fair  which means you need to be nice to me in order for me to be nice to you. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm going to put all the solutions part on here, in this journal. 

Whereas the venting part will be shifted to "Absolutely Awful " journal.