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[ll Ontology ll]

I shouldn't put the following one below in a journal that I've titled Creative Writing so.

You can say whatever you want here but in advance I'm going to be an asshole, just my straight self, nothing else, unless you somehow creatively move me otherwise.

Edited May 5, 2021 by ll Ontology ll

[ll Ontology ll]

There's really nothing else in this life for me.

True love or true hero, the latter is the only way I have the balls to betray my heart on the former and the former is the only thing I can find in this universe worth pursuing. Thus it is inevitably both unless she forbids the latter but then what will she nag me about when I'm not occupying my attention there. Write books and music perhaps, not too much violence or dangerous positions of any kind. Create businesses that change the face of the planet. But then if she doesn't want me to strive for too much power, find a place in the mountains together to be alone with one another for the rest of our days however she pleases. I could write a jokes book to share witticisms with her just to get her to giggle at the right moments, we could grow our own food someplace, even setup our own water. Start a community even if that's what she wanted. Anything to make her happy. Until then I have no choice but to work towards heroism with love. It's in my genes, it's been pressing into me for many years. Combined with my reasoning skills about life I can't mellow out without a woman, especially not under cultural values. I have to destroy something with class or make something of sophistication whichever brings about the greater level of creativity. What am I creating and destroying and what for? I don't care for fame, status or anything of this nature out of helping me find love if that's the place I need to look to open up my options. This is who and what I am. Only thing godly about me is my wit, everything else is merely courage. With all my intelligence and creativity, it's nothing without my heroism and the woman I love. I've thought of Polyamory but that's an open question at this point something that would be discussed with a potential partner. I've thought about 50 love relationships with women around the world while being a hero of my choosing of some sort. But as I say that, even though we could negotiate something seems odd about that if I was talking about this with someone that I felt I was really compatible with. Even if I didn't feel like it was a betrayal it would just be like what for, it's just extra periods I gotta deal with other than the benefit of alternating between in their off periods. Plus if I have multiples then at least some of them will as well so what does that mean about my relationship with the dudes don't want to be looking after them in anyway haha. 

Regardless, I'm here to die for love. I am here to be selfless. For her, for everyone, life or all three. 

[ll Ontology ll]

Mediaeval part of me wishes we still had gladiator games, fight to the death kind of thing. Just go all Spartan.

I want to have coffee like a nice fucking black creamy coffee in a hot air balloon while going through the clouds overlooking the green snowy mountains you know, with the heat above flowing into my face to offset the breeze 

[ll Ontology ll]

And a lost dogs home shelter I want to start one of those, and cats too. All animals that need healing. We gotta fix so many things on this planet together, all of us

[ll Ontology ll]

Writing out a whole list of things I want to save and a whole lotta things I want to wage war with on this planet, time to get creative, time to destroy, time to unite

Or just the universe in general you know

Edited May 4, 2021 by ll Ontology ll

[Zeroguy]

How old are you if it is not a secret? 

Curious nothing else. 

Edited May 4, 2021 by Zeroguy

[ll Ontology ll]

Not something I reveal on the forum unless I know the person well. There is only one amazing person here that happens to know, kinda amazing, not completely amazing but just kinda

 

[Zeroguy]

Ok you are young. Around 20 I guess. Kinda. 

[ll Ontology ll]

@Zeroguy State your purpose for knowing.

[Zeroguy]

Research. 

[ll Ontology ll]

That's a terrible reason. Next request: Make use of my time in a worthy way on your next comment or I shall ask you to leave my kingdom here.

Get creative, open debate, general conversation, anything that affords the luxury of quality conversation.

[Raptorsin7]

@ll Ontology ll Haha nice.

What do you think of Interracial dating?

I'll give you example. I am Indian guy who prefers woman of other ethnicities. I am internally racist, like I would be shocked if I ever found a woman from sub-suharran africa very attractive. Do you think majority of woman will have this same ethnic bias against me?

I grew up in a multicultural city so I bet people here are more tolerant, but i'm assuming there is still some degree of racism.

Do you think ethnicity makes a difference? Like I have certain euro features so maybe I have a better chance with Russian girl vs Japanese girl because me and russian girl have close ethnic ties?

Any other thoughts.

Nice journal and attitude btw. Very refreshing here.

[ll Ontology ll]

@Raptorsin7 I already have answer without reading everything. Heal your issues. Done. Sorry no other way around it. You must face your motherly demons, all of them, you don't want anything lingering for the best possible relationship or potential courtship. Heal everything you have about both genders and I promise you that will leave a significantly positive imprint at the very least as a consequence of a lack of a negative imprint from what can easily come of it. I can empathise. I won't give specific details, we don't know each other well enough but I've spoken about it with others here.

[Raptorsin7]

@ll Ontology ll Yeah I know that. That is fundamental. 

I am curious to hear about it, that's all.

I am working on all of that. I'm not going to get into a relationship until the underlying insecurity is resolved

[ll Ontology ll]

@Raptorsin7 On the interracial thing, you already know the answer. It just depends on the two individuals, but it will always be looked upon as different that's just how people are programmed unless its the norm.

[Raptorsin7]

1 minute ago, ll Ontology ll said:

On the interracial thing, you already know the answer. It just depends on the two individuals, but it will always be looked upon as different that's just how people are programmed unless its the norm.

Can you expand on this. I'm not sure what you mean.

 

[ll Ontology ll]

@Raptorsin7 Yes.

The universe follows a pre-set of defined laws which follows all the way to our biology up to and including how we organise our perceptual world, especially our social world. 

In fact, our social world for the majority of humans unless your brain is organised very differently from others take people with autism spectrum disorder (which has its variability in different ways), is our world.

This is a good thing and a bad thing.

This is good up to and including the fact that a person has the cognitive malleability to take in variability as a part of their biologies natural propensity towards in-group as opposed to out-group preferencing, and when to state it rather bluntly, they're stupid. They're a guy who grows up to rob a liquor with cops standing in line to pay for their fuel. 

All of us are well cultured I'm sure as it concerns racial disparities as well as inclusionary measures, the latter here stretching as far as dating too of course otherwise you would have felt it uncomfortable to even talk about on the forum.

Comfortability here purely depends on the amount of exposure every individual brain has had to the acceptance of racial differences all the way up to dating and you're spot on in your approach as it concerns determining what cultures have greater/less comfort here. 

If you were to try and date a woman that was a part of a small primitive tribe we both know that your odds are significantly less compared to if you were to try in a city where the views there are more multicultural. However, let's take a woman that looked the opposite to you that loved you and was from this multicultural city environment. If either of you were to go to an environment where either the people were exclusively of her ethnicity or of your ethnicity plus that group you were a part of placed subtle shame on your mate choice, even if you stayed together because you both recovered fairly easily as you both had a self awareness about what was happening, you'd still feel the primitive social wiring that took thousands of years to develop bearing down on you both to follow the groups underlying impressions. We needed the group back then, they needed us and because we weren't all geniuses, we needed these primitive evolutionary social responses.

So its of course a natural consequence of our social wiring, we can't help it but to feel the urge to be idiots when it comes to ostracising versus acceptance when there's a collective Mexican wave on someone, whether this is on perceptual racial differences all the way up to financial differences.

I believe you know this though.

The city offers a perceptual cocktail that people have to get used to and so the more blacks we see with whites the more it becomes readily accepted to peoples subconscious wiring, the more conflict we see between whites and blacks though the more black and white couples will feel that social pressure. This example can be applied analogously to all racial contrasts, the less social conflict surrounding the issue because this cultural dissonance is analogous to the tribal group dissonance (as our brains can't tell the difference even though the culture isn't really a tribe its just because we watch the televisions, computer screens and read the papers, etc that we get indoctrinated into that belief - government an't our tribe) the more at ease the couple or more (i.e. polyamory) will feel socially at ease. Historically, it has tended to matter more for women.

Norms create the brains comfort level, they're analogous to our daily habits we have to break or make, the relationships we could make or need to break based on some other norm/habit we should make/break because it serves our higher interest to do so.

As for what cultures, demographics and races would have more/less comfort, we'd have to have further insightful questions there to draw out decent discussion, for now, this will serve.

 

 

 

[Raptorsin7]

@ll Ontology ll Thanks for the detailed response.

How many attractive woman in the first world do you believe are this level of understanding around dating/romance? I'm assuming the more woke a woman is the more open they would be to more open dating preferences.

I'm also curious how my dating preferences will change once I deal with the underlying trauma around woman, my mother, ethnic acceptance etc.

Like I doubt I'll all of a sudden find super manly and hairy woman attractive, but who knows

[ll Ontology ll]

@Raptorsin7 Relative to the world population almost zero. Most people are on social media, that's the first red flag even though social media is meant to bridge social differences and I believe it does, it has mostly created the opposite inside and outside the cognitive deficits it reinforces which need rectification. Determine the communities and type of women that are more likely to have this level of understanding and then go from there.

Run experiments with yourself, start a Pinterest account and begin searching for women, notice changes in patterns overtime. I did the same thing. I can be with a woman from any racial background based on my own self experimentation, but as for the super manly hairy women its never been a thing for me either ha. For me attractiveness is just a control variable, all things considered I take similar personality, interests, growth orientations into much greater consideration. That's a very important deduction you've made as well, I believe you will, this was what occurred with me and my own changes in patterns overtime especially the more exposure I gave myself to a variety of women. In the end, I'm no one special in that I choose love first and foremost. Compatibility of intelligence is vital but I know my own level of intelligence can only get me so far regarding my choices. 

I only ever used Pinterest and related (i.e. porn) for experimental purposes; imagination and real life is my preference. Plus I want a real woman you know, nothing fake or overly advertised. #Hairy legs and moustache

 

[Raptorsin7]

 @ll Ontology ll Wow thanks a lot, this is great stuff.

I'm not at a point where i'm actively seeking a partner but when I do i'll keep all this stuff in mind. 

I think my best chance would be finding a girl who has a male relative, like brother father etc, who is into spirituality and consciousness work etc. Even if she herself isn't actively involved in a meaningful way. This would be target niche. 

I hope there are a bunch of successful dudes with hot wives who got into meditation once they realized material objects don't bring lasting happiness. I gotta find me a daughter of one of those unions haha

Edited May 5, 2021 by Raptorsin7