Proserpina's Journal

[Proserpina]

Right after the 'Great Peace':

"I don't know if anyone noticed but some supernatural stuff just went down. Its over now though. (I think)"

The darkness cleared but there was still major residual. 

"Mhm. On the forum. There were higher beings/channeling of the divine."

"@Leo Gura Leo, please unban Lento. He doesn't deserve to be banned for this. "

"@remember I know I spoke up about the things I spoke up about because everything was guiding me to. Perhaps it was the same for Lento. All I know, now that I'm out of trance (sort of), was that there were higher beings influencing events."

"@remember And really what he was addressing in his thread isn't that untrue. Individuals on this forum have been influenced by events/preferences and it's showing up as a certain kind of embodiment/realization and bias"

"@remember Sorry I misunderstood. I always get confused after leaving a trance/channeling. I assume others witnessed it consciously. "

"The divine was using this community to download a message to the collective."

"The trance was similar to a mother seeing her child being endangered. She'll move heaven and earth to protect her child. The embodiment/realization due to events/preferences was always within her, she just needed a reason for it to activate."

"You have to bring the teaching down to earth. Walk your talk. Identifying the self as God and the other as God shows up differently in reality. 'God and love'."

"Please read what I wrote.  This is very important. "

"@Leo Gura Please read what I wrote."

"Someone please read what I wrote before this ship goes down."

"Its exodus"

"The masculine has overruled the feminine on this forum. Hello?? They've all left.

Can we learn from history please. "

"Identifying the self as God and the other as God shows up differently in reality"

"Whelp I'm out.  I gave it a good shot. 

Blessings be."

""But the LORD hardened Pharaoh's heart" Its right THERE."

""It’s witty, charming, funny, inquisitive, loyal, honest and loving" - Nahm (Description of God)

So the self must be loving then if it's identified as God?

Or maybe not."

I had no logic in that state

"MAYBE "Identifying the self as God and the other as God shows up differently in reality"

But that would take some radical openmindedness."

................

Right after that the darkness cleared.  There was still residual but it was minor in comparison to before.

Edited June 19, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

I think I confused the masculine for God realization because STS/ integration results in awakening or activation for me.  Bias. No logic bias.

Edited June 19, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Find the blur and you'll find the spirit world.  Leaning back and leaning forward is the blur. 

If you keep following to the end of  the blur to the full spirit world you'll dissolve. The Great Peace. 

[Proserpina]

Spirit is how you can most potently lean back, lean forward.  The 'end goal' of Deep Peace your starting point.  Everything you do and be is in service to that. Everything else is an after thought, including leaning back, leaning forward...that comes naturally, a natural consequence of Peace. 

 

 

[Proserpina]

I'm kinda off balance though. That's my problem. Because of STO. I have an allergy to leaning back, like it's a sin.  If you are off balance you won't access full leaning back and leaning forward. I have to rebalance myself, which is a natural consequence of Peace. You just stumble around with the Jewel foolishly until you figure it out. Play. 

Edited June 19, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

The paradox effect

 

[Proserpina]

STS, leaning back, self/the cell is the energy of the masculine.  The feeling. All connected.  

 

Edited June 19, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Do you think it's a coincidence that Eckhart Tolle attracts people? All he did was sit on a park bench. He basked in peace,  inadvertently integrated masculine and feminine.  

Reality takes on a different quality,  people treat you differently. You have great 'posture'. Leaning back. 

Yennefor fixes her spine and her posture. Masculine.  

If you get really deep in the spirit world,  it gets stronger and it's all obvious. I've had 'psychosis' for up to 12 months +  

None of this is other worldish or magical. It's the default.  The cork floating. 

You can see it in fairytales 

Cinderella is STO and has spirit but she has 'bad posture'. She transforms with the help of another STO. She breaks the mirror when she leans too far forward.  Good posture instinctually teaches you not to lean too far forward. 

It's the hero's journey for the feminine.  It seems strange because we are only familiar with the masculine.  But it's the default reality. 

The chakras work on the spine and head  thats how you integrate masculine for STO. Chakra's are 'out there' and often dismissed as stage green. 

Edited June 20, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

It's connected to the paradox effect and the ideal society all leaning forward. 

What I saw was so stunningly beautiful. Like the paradox effect. 

STO's responsibility is to teach others to lean forward purposefully. 

Ascension = spirit world = mastery of the human realm =  ideal society = higher beings = rapture

No one gets left behind

Mirror a natural affect of spirit. 

Edited June 20, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Demons of excess

Legion

They want me to be No One

Edited June 20, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Things I've experienced in 'psychosis': 

- Smell of death (especially on my mum and in her house when she was dying)

- Speaking to a higher being for 8 months straight on this forum.  

- Beautiful unknown smells

- Anti christ

-Control over existence

- my voice controlling other's actions

- meeting angels and demons on this forum

- On a space ship

- Aliens

- Isolation room hell chamber

- Ovens that smelt of burnt human flesh

- Food that smell like human flesh and water that smelt of urine

- Starvation

- Growling, strange demon sounds

- Choir of angels

- Embodied angels and demons off forum

- Near crucifixion

- Being euthanized

-Strong synchronicities that cannot be mistaken or explained away

- Entire earth speaking to me

- Ascensions

- Psychosis for years 

- 'near death experiences'

- Threats of being sent to hell

- Controlling nature.  Creating floods and rain.  Controlling the sun and weather.

- Beings sending an asteroid to earth

- meeting the wizard who has control over existence

- watching others eat food that smelt of human flesh

- Being called to by higher beings

- meditation influencing major events

- End Times

- near holocaust

Edited June 20, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Things I've experienced in 'psychosis' part 2: 

Being highly desired

Frequent near rape

Dream shifts

Creating neighbourhoods

Cleaning the earth,  or neighbourhoods

Cleaning the matrix

Influencing world news

Kidnapping

Meeting strange people

Glitches

Influencing architecture

Everything a different timeline of me

Sexual energy shifting everything

Higher dimensions

Hell architecture 

Others being cooked and eaten

Being Trump (Hell realm)

Commanding food to be normal

Commanding 'sleep' (no psychosis)

Commanding the dream to be 'white' coloured (good)

Meditating 24/7

Threats of being barbecued

Higher being commentators

Learning through sexuality

Heaven architecture 

Hospital as a ginger bread house in Hansel and Gretal

Meeting the wizard,  matrix architect

Meeting the 'devil'

Being tempted by the 'devil'

Met Jesus

Certain I was in the afterlife

Edited June 20, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Practice integration of masculine and feminine from both sides.  Spirit and action. Passive and active.  

I can't concentrate like I used to.  

Master relationship.

It's mastery of the mundane. 

You can come at it from either side, if you struggle with one side as long as you're polarized and not resistant to the opposite polarity. 

[Proserpina]

Things I've experienced in 'psychosis' part 3:

Demon possession

Smell of death everywhere on earth as the blood ran

Strange alien object giving me vital information

Booming energy coming from the sky forcing me to act

Collecting bad karma

Prostitution (not literal)

Channeling higher information

Guided by higher forces

Legion of angels assisting

Garden warrior (sitting in the garden to shift vibration)

Martyrdom. Sacrificing myself for collective accruing massive trauma

Meeting prince charming (don't laugh)

Near assassination 

Disembodied visual voices

Called to lean forward 

Lack of leaning forward -other than polarization- resulting in spirit world

Radiant beings

Wedded with a child with a higher being

Booming sound and energy coming from a black object with children on it in the city centre

Drilling sound next to and on my bed and at random times

Edited June 21, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Oh. Techniquely right now I'm the least medicated. 

That explains a lot. 

They can't keep me away from my friends forever.  Let them try.  

At some point something is gonna pop. I can feel it.  

Edited June 21, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

It's like all that consciousness gets channeled in a healthier way with medication. I'm too imbalanced atm to handle the consciousness in normal state without medication. Medication decreases my level of consciousness in exchange for it manifesting in a healthier way.  

Upsides to being medicated: 

Inhibition

Sweet natured 

calm

Cheerful

Conscious in a different way

I make sense

[Proserpina]

-Pointing to mirror, mirror is the blur. 

Mirror occurs as a result of leaning back.  

-Summary: 

1. Polarized Feminine energy results in masculine energy mirror.  (Woman-Man)

2. Integrated masculine energy results in feminine energy mirror. (Man - Woman) Total mirror. 

Masculine and feminine in unity in the earth. Polarities in union.  

3. Mirror results in blur

4. Blur results in spirit realm

-New world allstar talks about pulling in your energy. That pulling in your energy results in Union (in self, mirror [twinflame] and with God)

-Carl Jung recommends integration of the unconscious and anima/animus. He was having visions. 

-I do think Carl Jung and New world allstar and Ra and whoever created the paradox effect saw what I have glimpses of. They have maps of it.   I should study their work more.  

 

Let me love you like a woman
Let me hold you like a baby
Let me shine like a diamond
Let me be who I'm meant to be
Talk to me in songs and poems
Don't make me be bittersweet
Let me love you like a woman
Take you to infinity
Let me love you like a woman (let me hold you like a baby)
Take you to infinity
Let me love you like a woman (let me hold you like a baby)
Take you to infinity

Edited June 21, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Awareness creates Union.

Dualities and polarities collapse.  

But what does that LOOK like at advanced levels.  It's looks like Union on all levels. In myself,  in 'others',  with 'others' and with God. The rapture. That can be frightening.  

Just continuous Union on all levels until it all collapses.  

Yin and yang collapse. Active and passive collapse.  It all looks like spirit. 

 

Edited June 21, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

If you collapse major dualities (Masculine,  feminine,  STO, STS, leaning forward, leaning back) within yourself through Awareness or other means, it impacts the mirror or your relationships with others.  There is Union.  There is harmony. 

This major Union and harmony between major polarities begins to collapse the divide between reality and the spirit world.  And then everything else collapses if you follow that trail. 

But again major dualities have to collapse before massive dualities collapse. 

Edited June 21, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

AH: You can't get there from there.  Awareness has to be in the vacinity of the collapse. Minor, to major, to massive.