Proserpina's Journal

[Proserpina]

Gold nugget realizations:

I am God

Time and space is imaginary

Everything is imaginary

Illusions I trip over

Delusion

[Proserpina]

Sometimes I think I should just stay on my anti psychotic forever because I don't have the capacity to learn.  Everyone else seems to think so.  

The delusions are so discouraging.  I just want to cry.  

[Proserpina]

Come from the position of awe first then study what reality is.  Everything won't make sense otherwise.  Reality is 'nothingness' is a description of something awe inspiring. Otherwise it's conceptualising and an intellectual endeavour. 

[Proserpina]

All delusions, illusions and interpretations are based on a core truth in this condition. For me that truth is that I am God and all deserve - on some level - love and can be transformed/dissolved by love (seeing the vortex version/best self).

Abraham Hicks says the vortex version is NOW. What is true. The present manifestation is old news. Passing away.  

Edited May 25, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

So it would explain why the wisest voices would tell me the demons are a dream and wise voices were always the case. 

I'm so in touch with the vortex in psychosis/ that state I'm actually seeing it.  Seeing waves of love. 

To focus on the vortex version as well as the hidden truths causing delusion are two solutions. 

If I can forgive myself for the confusion then I can gain something from this.  

 

[Proserpina]

The best selves all tend to be very similar.

A wave of love.  

So it's one massive wave of love all around you.  That's the true reality, the NOW reality.  

And their love all impact each other. 

Edited May 25, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

In some realms there is the Law of Love.  To see the truth of an individual is to ascend and to not is to be left behind. 

In my vision I saw beings honour the law of love.  The beings who did not were left behind. 

Edited May 25, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Filling your core up with love is filling yourself up with the truth of who you are.  The impact feels a bit like narcissism.

The feminine is oriented toward filling. 

The masculine is oriented toward the truth of who he is. His birthright. The law of love.  

[Proserpina]

2 hours ago, Proserpina said:

The best selves all tend to be very similar.

A wave of love.  

That's only one aspect of the best self or true self. 

Edited May 25, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

Unmanifested - Being (father)

manifested - Wise self- Being (son)

Unmanifest vortex - Wise self - Being - Wave (Holy spirit) 

 

Edited May 26, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

 

11 hours ago, Proserpina said:

Unmanifested - Being (father)

The wise Self that is always the case

11 hours ago, Proserpina said:

manifested - Wise self- Being (son)

The wise Self revealed

Edited May 26, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

24 minutes ago, Proserpina said:

"Unmanifested - Being (father)"

The wise Self that is always the case

It is the unmanifest that you can see in the manifested. 

wise Self revealed is the vortex self (just like the unmanifest/it IS the unmanifest).  Avatar. Jesus. (Son)

Edited May 26, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

I'm not entirely sure what the Holy spirit is.  

I think it is the qualities of the wise Self awoken within you. Your spirit is alive.  The wise Self is peaking through.  His wisdom helps you to pierce the veil and see the unmanifest. You can also translate the unmanifest. 

Edited May 26, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

I accidentally confused the avatar for God. That was my mistake in my posts.  

“Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone."

Edited May 26, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

People can feel like they are the coming of Christ during a mystical experience because they could be or atleast somewhat are the collective's vortex revealed. They also identify as the one behind the mask - the mother- so they feel they are the originator. 

[Proserpina]

2 hours ago, Proserpina said:

I accidentally confused the avatar for God. That was my mistake in my posts.  

“Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone."

I mean I know who God is. I had that awakening to Being when I was 7. 

I'm curious now about avatars, the voices and the vortex/ end of the dream. 

[Proserpina]

It's easier to see that everything is one voice, one being if there is some translation, avatarness. Translation and seeing of the vortex and unmanifest. 

[Proserpina]

What I see is literally like this.  There is an avatar/translation behind every form or voice or disembodied being.  For some reason I'm translating or manifesting Being behind many forms. 

 

 

 

 

Edited May 27, 2022 by Proserpina

[Proserpina]

My boyfriend typed me as INFP 5w4, 584 sp/sx.

Similar to Leo who is INTP 5w4, 583 sx/sp (according to personality database)

My boyfriend -Joseph Maynor, banned member - is ENTJ 4w5 458 sx/so. 

I have the same tritype as my boyfriend but in a different order. In a way we are opposites with the same tritype. That's why we get along. We've been together for 4 years now.  

I fell in love with him at first sight. Stalked him until he agreed to be my BF. I love him to death. We have a passionate albeit sometimes volatile relationship. 

[Proserpina]

There is the paradox that when you care about total embodiment you end up not caring/needing it at all. Or when you don't care/ need embodiment at all you end up with total embodiment. Two paths.

Edited May 28, 2022 by Proserpina